This life consumed of hatred & fear
No one to turn to, no where to go
As I hold the pills in my hand I ask
Is this what I want?
Yes
Day in & day out I swallow the handfuls
My body slowly shutting down
Would they miss me?
Possibly
But this way it's not so sudden
Stop he says
Why? Do they even care?
Enforcement now in my face, questioning me
Why did I tell him?
Overcome with fear I stop
But the damage has been done
I live my life with this hole inside of me worsening
Words spat in my face
I'm just a slave
They don't care
They don't know
This life consumed of hatred & fear
No one to turn to, no where to go
As I hold the blade in my hand I ask
Is this what I want?
Yes
I watch frozen as the blood pours down
It's a release of everything held inside
Stop he says
For him
I will
Life got better with him around
Honestly
I felt wanted & secure, needed
He promised he would take me away from it all
That it would get even better
Just him & I, no one else
What happened to that?
He's gone now
Leaving me behind
For how long?
Days, months, years?
Too long
I hold my hand out
I'm falling back
Deeper into this horrible reality
I scream for him
No response
He's gone
He's left me behind in this place
I'm confused
What do I do?
Just what I've know
I pick up the pills more this time
The tears stream down my face
This life consumed of hatred & fear
No one to turn to, no where to go
As I hold the pills in my hand I ask
Is this what I want to do?
Yes
Behind I leave a simple sorry
