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Chapter One

Farrah's POV:

"He shouldn't pressure you ..." said Marabella.

"He's not pressuring me Mare!" I expressed, "He's just getting anxious!"

"If you're not ready to have sex with him then don't. If he loves you the way you say he does, then he can wait." Marabella said.

"Maybe I'm being dumb though. I mean it's juuust sex, right?" I claimed trying to sound as if it meant nothing to me.

But Marabella knows me better than that.

"I think, that you should wait. You asked for my opinion so I'm giving it to you." Explained Marabella.

"Well .. I gotta go. I need to get ready for the party tonight, yanno."

"Please don't be upset with me Farrah, I am just trying to help you out. I don't want you to so something you'll regret."

"I'll be fine, okay? I love you."

she hung up. Talking to my sister always makes me feel better. Is it bad that she's two years younger than me and yet I still ask her for advice sometimes? She's already had sex too & she's only 17. I'm 19 and I'm still afraid to look at my boyfriend's penis. I've been dating Niall for 4 months now and I think I might finally be ready to have sex with him tonight.

I mean, WHY not?

I just hope he's sober, 'cause he's a nasty drunk. Sometimes I feel like his mother, I'm always taking care of him, I'm use to it by now though. But if tonight is the night, I gotta look good for this party.

After I finish my shower I blow dry my long dark brown hair, and curl it with my wand, afterwards I do my makeup. Black eyeliner & lip stick. I put on fake eyelashes in hope they'll make my green eyes pop. Now what to wear... I think I'll wear my tight black dress with ... Oh & my black high heels! Okay, tonight is going to be amazing.

As I arrive at Niall's house it's about 7 o' clock & I see there's not as many cars as I expected. I really hope I'm not overdressed. He said party so I assumed it was the usual loud and crazy sort of thing. I guess he only invited a few people.

As I get out of my car it hits me. Tomorrow morning I will no longer be a virgin. With every step I take towards his door I'm panicking more & more inside. Maybe I should turn around, right now. I know, I'll tell him I'm sick & couldn't make it!

Then the front door opens.

It's Niall, "Aye babe!" he said with a huge smile. I can tell he's already been drinking a bit, ugh.

"Hi baby." I say as I wrap my arms around his neck & kiss his cheek.

"The party couldn't start without you!" he claims as we walk inside.

"Oh, I'm sure." I say sarcastically. We walk into the living room holding hands. I seem to recognise majority of the people here. Let's see... Bethany my roommate who I've never been crazy about, a few of Niall's friends, I think that one is Harry, that one's Louis, then Liam and Zayn and then there's some girlfriends of the guys. Or maybe they're just with the guys for tonight, I don't wanna know.

"OH HEY FARRAH! GUYS, GUYS, GUYS!" Bethany yelled above the loud music & all the other people in the room, "FARRAH'S HERE GUYS!" She instantly ran to me giving me a big sloppy hug & I could smell the liquor on her breath. She grabbed my chin with her fingers while she still had one arm around my neck.

"You looksooo prettyyy " she slurred at me.

After taking her arm off me I replied, "& you look sooo drunk..." Everyone started laughing.