If someone asks we're just friends(Connor Franta fanfic)

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It's just another way of showing me that i can't be happy more than two minutes...I'm sitting here just holding the test looking at it about a hounded times.No matter how much i look at it it isn't going to change.My biggest fear was passing out,because i have less blood cells than a normal person should and the doctor told me when i was little that if i ever get pregnant i will pass out sometimes.I snapped back to reality and realized that i have to hide this no matter what.It's happening and i can't change that.I grabbed a couple of paper towels and put the test in them.I marched out the door with it in my hand and right than i saw Connor infront of me.

-"What you got there?"

-" Oh nothing,girls stuff you don't wanna know" and in my head i went "you sure as hell don't wanna know"

As i was putting the test in my closet he came up behind me putting his arms around my neck,at that moment I felt so sick and wanted to pass out.

-" Hey,look I'm going with some friend tonight,wanna come?" he said softly putting his lips on my neck..ohh his perfume it's so strong I'm gonna puke..

-"You know what? I'm not feeling well..you go have fun" i put a smile on my face..if you can call that a smile

-"Why what's wrong?"

-" Nothing i feel a little bit sick that's it."

-"Ohh ok than.Want me to get you something to make you feel better?"

-" No thanks just have fun"

-"Ok go to bed i don't want you to fall somewhere"

Andd here comes the "smile".

Shortly after that he went out.

I couldn't eat and my stomach hurt so i stayed up late and watched some movies..at one point i heard the phone ringing.I thought it was Connor so i just let the voicemail get it.But all of a sudden i hear a girls voice...a familiar girl's voice...and than it came to me...it was Amber.Her voice went through me like electricity at one point.This was the girl that made me do something i never thought i would.She was the reason of everything lately...

"So Connor,sweetie,i thought you were coming tonight..if you're with that bitch again I'm not going to forgive you this time...come here or you'll never see me again"

I couldn't believe what i heard.He's with her again? And i wander why i can't trust him...Slowly i layed on my bed just going trough the message she left...I seriously didn't want this right now.I'm gonna confront him as soon as he gets home.And this took a while.He didn't come home that night till maybe morning I was already beaten down..every second was torture.And than finally i heard the door open.I pretended to be asleep.He came in quietly and layed next to me kissing my forehead.At that point i "woke up" and he said

-"Sorry i didn't wanna wake you"

-"No that's ok..how was it?"

-"Ohh good you know here and there"

-"Who was there?"

-"Old friends I had fun"

-"A little to good of friends ha?"

-"What?"

-"Something interesting happened last night..Amber called.."

I pressed the button that was next to our bed and he heard the message.

-"Look i can explain"

-"I'd like to hear it."

-"She came yesterday and called me, she said she wanted to end everything so i should come to meet her"

-"Look i believe you,but I'm not convinced.Why are you going to her,why are you still trusting her,why didn't you tell me sooner...It's too much to swallow right now"

I grabbed the keys to my car and headed for the door.Down his lips went "Ann wait!" but i didn't,i just closed the door.When i did i felt so sick at that point i felt like someone was turning the light off and on.But i didn't stop.I went into the car and drove slowly away.A couple of minutes it was worse i wanted to stop but i didn't have anywhere.The next thing i saw was blood all over my hands my pajamas and as i looked to the window i saw this enormous cut on my neck.Breathing heavy i closed my eyes.

A huge pain in my left part of the body woken me up.I was in a familiar room and than i realized i was at the hospital.My neck hurt a lot i guess from that wound but i saw Connor talking to a doctor.I couldn't hear what was happening but that was the first time i saw Connor cry in months.Slowly he came to my bed grabbing my hand and through tears he said:

-"Why didn't you tell me?"

-"Why didn't you tell me?"

-"I didn't want you to know"

-"Same reason here"

-"I didn't want to find out this way,you know that you almost died? It was eather me putting you to the ground  or the baby.." he layed on my stomach looking up to me " we almost had a kid,a little girl running towards me screaming DADDY DADDY...i understand why you didn't want to tell but please put this behind us and go on...let's move forward"

-"How many times Connor? You will have to win me back,make me trust you again..."

-"I'll do anything"

-"We'll see about that"