What Now? (Carl grimes fanfic)

Chapter 13 - Silence

I woke up. Reminiscent of my dream filling my head. Pain in my leg causing me to groan. I looked over at the door and Daryl stood there. I smiled to him but sighed, wishing it was Carl.

"Hey." I rubbed my eyes as I sat up. "Hey." he mumbled as I got out of the bed. I could tell he wanted to tell me something.

"What is it?" I asked him and his eyes flickered from the floor to mine. "So what's going on between you two?" I didn't reply to him. "Come on, I know. Tell me." his eyes practically begged. I knew Daryl wasn't the whining type, but he was like my father. So given that, I could tell him.

"I screwed up, I pushed him over the edge. He cared for me and I didn't appreciate that. Now he doesn't want to talk or see me." I wanted to cry but I didn't.

" Did he hurt you?" Daryl looked me over and I barged past him, out of the cell.

"No! He didn't hurt me physically. He hurt me mentally. He hurt me by putting all this damn space between us!" I screamed at him and ran away. I ran as best and as fast as I could with my leg. Tears leaking down my face. Hair flying in the wing behind me.

I wanted to be set free. To rewind life back to reality. Back to how it used to be when you were a child and not some kid destined to be eaten alive. I missed my Mom and Dad. I missed arguing with my brother. I missed running around with Rufus. Going to school. Being happy.

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I stopped once I was outside, catching my breath. But instead it got caught in my throat.

There he stood. That look on his face when he was frustrated. When he didn't know what to do. His hat was off and his hair was matted to his forehead. He looked tired. He didn't see me until he turned around to walk in the prison.

His feet stopping in their tracks. He looked at me. It felt like eternity we stood looking in each others eyes.

I could hear my heart pounding outside of my chest.  He looked away then back to me. 

"Please say something."  My words coming out weak. He is expression was blank.

"You know the saying if you love someone, set them free?" he looked to me and I gave him a hopeful nod. "Well I think its best I set you free." I choked on his words, one by one.

"Are you saying that its over? That we're over?" I asked him as a tear escaped. "I'm saying that I love you but I think the times not right. We cant get along for some reason. At least not now."

I slowly fell to the ground as he told me this. "Emeli, I love you. We just need some space. Some time alone." he walked over to me.

"No! No! The space is killing me!! It's killing me!!" I screamed at him just as an the wall exploded next to us. I was thrown a few feet away from my spot on the ground. Carl landing next to me.

****Car; P.O.V****

I tried to explain to Emeli that we needed to wait on us. But she took it harder that I thought she would. But when I went to her side something exploded and she was thrown across the ground along with me.

"Emeli! Are you okay?!" I asked her as she pushed herself up. I noticed her head bleeding and she grabbed it, hissing in pain. I looked over at the others who ran out of the prison. My dad sending me a nod as he passed.

I helped her up and we walked to the fence. I was pissed as to what I saw down at the gate. The governor.

"I just want to talk!" he yelled and everyone looked at my dad. "Come on Rick and No one gets hurt!" he yelled, "I don't make the decisions anymore. There's a council now!" My dad yelled back.

I watched the governor say something to some people and they went to the cars. Yanking two people out from them. "Is Hershel and Michonne a part of the council?" he asked pointing to the two on their knees. I gritted my teeth in anger as Maggie and Beth cried in worry.

Daryl giving my dad a nod while he hugged me. I grabbed a gun from Daryl and watched my Dad walk down the path to talk.

****Emeli's P.O.V****

I listened to Carl fuss with Daryl about how he could end it all now, cause he had an aim on this 'Governor' guy. I had heard a little about him, but not enough to understand why he hated the group.

It was then, out of no where, he swung Michonne's katana at Hershel's head and I screamed with Beth and Maggie as it made contact. He was dead. The man that saved my life. The man that understood my problems. The man I use to laugh at jokes with about how we only had one leg. He was dead.

We all fired as if it would take the pain away. It did by replacing it with rage and revenge. Gunshots flying through the air as I shot at several people. I wanted them all to pay for what they had done.

I took cover behind a wall. Carl next to me. "Go to the bus!" he yelled pointing over at the line of people loading up on the prison bus. "No!" I screamed as I fired a few more shots. "Yes!" he argued back.

"You don't control me anymore." I told him as I glanced at him. He let a frustrated yell out as he fired at more people.

Maggie came and grabbed me, but I tried to resist her pull. "Stop! You have to go to the bus!" she yelled dragging me next to it. "But-" , "Stay!" she yelled running away. I sighed watching the tank. It came through the last gate and fired on the prison. I watched our home burst to pieces.

It hurt to watch it all happen.

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Glenn came up with Maggie and she left him at the bus to go get Beth. I couldn't just sit here and do nothing. I grabbed my gun and ran back over in the fight. I watched Daryl slip a grenade in the tank barrel. The man inside rushing out just as it blew. He was then faced with Daryl. He was a dead man.

I shot a walker that came up behind me but another came up. I elbowed him in the head and punched him to the ground. Grabbing a rock and smashing his head. I huffed and turned to look at Rick. His faced was swollen and bloody. Lip busted, black eye and bloody knuckles. Carl rushed to help him. I walked over to them but stopped at the car seat that separated us.

It was Judith's car seat. Rick and Carl looked at it was shock. "No." Rick cried and I watched him and Carl cry. I approached it just as they did. Letting the tears fall when I saw the blood covering the seat. "Not Judith." I breathed out and wiped my face with my bloody hands.

"Lets go." Rick said looking away from the seat and I walked over to help him walk. I looked around for any others but I found no one. I quit crying. Now was not the time to cry. I mean, everyone got out right? If Judith was dead wouldn't there be guts everywhere or something? Right?

We couldn't give up hope that she and everyone else was alright. We walked up the path on the gravel. Silence surrounded us. Not the uncomfortable silence but the peaceful silence. The kind of silence that Hershel talked about and loved when we were out in the woods that time. When we thought that the sickness would end us. But we were clueless the whole time.

 Rick broke the silence. "Don't look back." he said as we made it up the hill. I breathed a sigh as we left it all behind.

A/N: Sorry for any spelling errors. But as you all know! The new episode comes on tonight and I CANT NOT WAIT! I hope you guys like the chapter and comment. Are you surprised that Carl told her that they needed space? PWEASE TELL MEH WHAT YOU THANK!!!!!! :) :) :) COMMENT/ VOTE/ HEART <3

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