He sees what I can't (A Luke hemmings fan fiction)

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Sorry I can never decide whether to put the authors not at the top or bottom. I have 144 reads!! That's 45 more than last chapter and that makes me so happy you have no idea. I'm sorry it takes me so long to write I just need to be inspired first and I've been kind of busy. Love you❤️

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LUKES POV

I'm having a huge problem. Ellie started off as just a pretty girl to stare at instead of doing work but now I literally can't stop thinking about her.

Especially her scars, people who hurt themselves usually have an insane amount of self hate and I want to help her.

But I also want to kiss her.

I also haven't spoken to her once because I'm so nervous she won't want to speak to some tall skinny quiet kid.

Every day I picture her telling me her secrets and I will just sit and listen until she's done. She won't be scared because I'll be understanding and she'll know that I wouldn't tell a soul.

Maybe one day she will tell me about her scars and what caused each one. She'll know that she's my world and I would sit patiently until she was done and then kiss the shit out of her because she deserves it.

And no matter what happens she can always talk to me and tell me what's going on inside her head.

Why can't I just grow a pair and ask her out?

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ELLIS POV

Taylor and I climbed the long staircase to the library in silence. She is a very nosy girl and I don't really like that but when you only have two friends, what are you supposed to do?

We sat down with our homework and as I reached over to grab my ruler she looked up at my wrist.

I quickly retracted in fear she might see what I'd been trying to hide. I swear at first I saw a smile but her eyes glossed over with sympathy and she whispered I'm so sorry.

Maybe I just imagined the smile, I always think people are out to get me but I shrugged off her apology.

In all honesty every skinny bitch out there should say they're sorry bc I'm positive every time they lose weight I gain it.

I hope she doesn't treat me differently because in eighth grade when my best friend found out, she never saw me the same. I felt like every time she called or texted, it was to check up on me.

Taylor keeps looking up from her work to nervously glance at me. Great now I only have one friend. Cool.

Don't get me wrong, I understand cutting my arm is stupid. That's why I started cutting my hips in eighth grade.

Even my temporary therapist couldn't check there. After being "clean" for 2 months everyone stopped worrying. Little did they know beneath my underwear which stretched across my hips, there were white, pink, and more recently, red lines.

I don't cut to take the pain away, I cut to punish myself. Twisted right? Why don't you just starve yourself?

Well, when you have zero will power or binge too often, it's very hard to starve which usually bulimia fixes. Although I am a strong believer that works, my gag reflex is non- excitant. "Mia" doesn't like that but what can I do? There's only so far I can push a toothbrush down my throat before it's digested.

There are varied results like the other day I did throw up but That was an extreme case and I'm not saying I never make myself throw up, it's just not as often as it should be.

The loud smack of Taylor's book made me I realize study hall was over and creative writing was next.

I tried to stop myself from becoming excited but couldn't. Luke is in that class and let's just say I've developed a little crush.

His face just makes me want to punch a wall.

I practically skipped the whole way there, not even stopping at my locker because I grab my notebook two classes early knowing he will be there before class starts.

I know luke doesn't like me, we've never spoken and although I'm usually outgoing and talkative, this year I've kept to myself.

He just seems so deep, I want to cuddle with him and drink tea, I'm very lonely lately. Michael has been hanging out with Luke and gaming and I'm trying to focus on school work.

I quietly took my permanent seat beside Luke who was, as usual, lost in his own world.

His notebook was flipped open as he sketched what seemed to be a girl who looked sad and hopeless. The girl was listening to her iPod and studying. It was a very cute picture and I enjoyed it very much.

I leaned a little bit closer to him and whisper, "I like that a lot."

He jumped slightly and shut the book, "Um thanks I guess," he mumbled cheeks glowing pink. Luke looked up, eyes locking on mine deciphering my real intentions when in all actuality, I just loved his drawing.

He saw this and reopened his notebook tearing out the page and signing the back messily. He placed it on my desk. Confusion crossed my features as I wrinkled my eyebrows.

"You can have it," He spoke simply, "I mean if you want it you can have it."

LUKES POV

A shy smile tugged at the corners of her lips, "Thank you," She whispered while the teacher told us our objective for today's class.

It was now or never, the beautiful girl in front of me admired the picture I had drawn of her, clueless as to my inspiration. If I don't do it now, I will regret it later.

"Hey um Ellie," she glanced towards me expectantly, "There's this uh thing um I don't know if-"

"Luke is there a reason you're distracting Miss Kennedy from her work?" the teacher stopped her lecture.

All eyes were on me all I could say was, "No."

"It must be important because you haven't even taken the notes on the board."

My eyes traveled to the front of the class wandering across the useless words, "It wasn't important I can assure you," I spoke dragging out the S in assure.

"Was that sarcasm mr Hemmings? I do not tolerate sarcasm in my classroom," honestly the last thing I need is this teacher on my back. It's so hard not to be sarcastic no one even knows this side of me.

"I'm well aware of that. I don't see why class had to stop just because I was asking Ellie a question." The teachers eyes practically turned red from my response and I could tell she was pissed.

"Well you've earned your self a detention mr Hemmings! I'll see you after class."

Everyone oooo'd but Ellie couldn't stop giggling. She giggled until she snorted and laughed so loud that I began to laugh.

That's how Ellie and I got detention together. Not exactly the date venue I was hoping for, but it'll do.

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A/N

Yoooo I'm sorry it takes so long to write! I suck I know my apologies. Well in other news luke hemmings is hot. I know my title keeps saying a Michael Clifford fanfic but idk why bc it's a Luke one and my wattpad is fucked up.

I hope your valentines day was nice and if you have break rn like me, I hope it's good!

I'll try to update soon

Ily❤️