I have a pretty nice life, I have a family (even if we have our arguments), I have friends (even if they're weird most of the time, I have pets that I take care of (even if they are a hassle). I have a nice life, but I don't know what's happening on the other side of the world because I don't want to know, or you can't know. but everything has a story, for example, let's take a wrench. A simple piece of metal or whatever it is made up, it helps you in many things, now let's ask a simple question. Where was it made? Then it leads to new stories and other stories and other stories. That question might lead you the other side of the world. I believe the future is pretty damn scary, you don't know what will happen. Will you die the next day? Have an accident? Find the love of your life? Or will it be another normal day like any other? I always have this thought if I was never born never existed or never met the people I know now, how would they be like? Would they be same as I know them now, different to the point they are a complete stranger? if I die now will they ever miss me? Talk about me, go to my funeral or never talk about me ever again? The future will also mean new friends, enemies, memories. Will the people I know now be close friend till my death or will I forget them? As you can see I have many questions than answers. Let's actually talk about the life I live right now. I live in San Pablo, CA and right now I think I'm fucked. As you can see I feel empty and/or depressed I don't know. America right now is fucked with this clown of a president. Global Warming is an issue but this piece of shit of a president is too stupid to understand it and is taking away funds to important programs. So overall it's a great year so far. But that's getting off the point again, I feel empty, I feel like I'm faking too many emotions right now, I smile, I laugh, I talk, but at the end of it I feel nothing, I do feel something. I feel embarrassed and ashamed because I look at my friends, classmates and they are far ahead of me. The thing that gets to me is that i can be at their level, I look at kids who are so disrespectful but they are on track. I could be at their level but I lack the motivation.
