Rant Book-OnGoing

Continuation

Okay so the last chapter I was talking about why I am a dancer and what I love about it. A thing I only now thought of and feel like mentioning about it is this.

I also love dance because to me it's kinda therapeutic. Calming, relaxing. It is the only thing that lets me find myself and who I am. I say therapeutic because I have really bad anxiety (general anxiety and social anxiety) I have a hard time interacting with people in social settings, holding normal conversations, talking on the phone, basically normal shit that other people can do with no problem I can't do without nearly having a panic attack over it because I over think shit to that point and worry and over exert mental energy over stupid little things. But dance, makes all of that disappear. When I hit the dance floor in class none of it exists. I feel normal, relaxed, confident. I don't worry about how I look or what I'm doing or what I say. I don't need to think and worry myself over every little detail. I feel like me. The me that isn't riddled with anxiety to the brim. That doesn't have financial problems or problems of any kind. I feel like the perfect version of myself. If that makes any sense in any way shape or form.

Anyway just thought I'd add that In to this for those that are interested if I didn't say this in the last chapter (I'm positive I didn't but I'm honestly to lazy to go and double check if I did say this already then sorry for repeating!)

Love, SWA19