Justins POV:
“Hey Justin” I heard her sweet voice say through the phone. God I missed her voice, I missed it so much I felt my heart starting to ache again. Shit what am I going to say now? I don’t know, I don’t even know how to start this out, I should’ve thought this out before I called! Say something Justin! I repeated over and over again.
Selenas POV:
I was sitting on my bed with Taylor staring at me wondering what he was saying. I hit mute on my iPhone and let out a whimper, actually I don’t even know what kind of noise it was.
“Taylor!!!!!” I yelled and cried “Why is this happening” my hands started to shake “I’m not ready for this I’m not ready” I was having a hard time catching my breath.
“Selena, Selena!” Taylor yelled snapping me back from my almost panic attack. She placed her hands on my shoulder “Say something to him, anything” she pleaded and hit the unmute button from my phone.
“Uhm, Justin?” Really Selena, really, that’s all you could come up with Justin? But it was silent on the phone for at least almost a minute. What was he doing, why’d he call if he had nothing to say?
Justins POV:
Why am I so stupid, why am I so stupid. I’m the stupidest person on this planet. I’m an idiot.
Every insult that I could possibly think of was coming into my head, there I was on the phone with the girl I’ve been missing every single day for over a year speechless. I’ve never been speechless in my life. I started hitting the palm of my hand to my forehead. Then I heard her breathing
“Uhm Justin?” she said louder this time, and I could tell she was confused. Could she really miss me? I have to say something! I was yelling at myself in my head.
I took a deep breath and gave it everything.
“I’m sorry Selena. I—I probably shouldn’t have called…” I finished my sentence with a big sigh. What was I doing?! This was my chance why was I blowing it!
“Uh, okay… I guess. Bye?” I could tell how confused she sounded but she wasn’t trying to keep the conversation going so why would I.
Selenas POV:
“I’m sorry Selena. I—I probably shouldn’t have called…” Every word he said was sinking into my soul. Just hearing his voice was enough for me, it made my heart feel warmth. A feeling I haven’t felt in such a long time. Once I was finally able to understand and comprehend what he said I was taken back. He called me? And now he’s saying he shouldn’t have called. No. He can’t do that to me. I want this awkward conversation to last longer even if he didn’t. But like I had no control over what my voice was saying I answered
“Uh okay… I guess. Bye?” I spoke quietly in the phone.
I saw Taylor snap her head at me and whisper no over and over again. I gave her a sympathetic look. I didn’t know what to do. I waited for him to say bye. Or hang up but nothing. We were just sitting on the phone awkwardly again. I have to do something. I have to be the bigger person and take a risk! I screamed at myself. You can do this Selena.
I heard him take a deep breath like he was about to say something, but I didn’t want to wait, what if he said bye and hung up. I can’t let him do that this is my chance. I’ve got to take it.
“Justin don’t say anything listen…”
Justins POV:
I was waiting for her to hang up, but I think she was waiting for me to say bye back but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to say bye. We needed to talk, or I needed to. I needed to get some things off my chest. I needed to apologize to her for not chasing after her that day. For letting her just walk out of my life without a word. But my words were stuck in my throat I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t speak. I took a deep breath louder than I wanted to just to let out some of my anxiety. And then she spoke again.
