Justins POV:
I ran to my car and started driving to Selenas house. A million thoughts were running through my head, when I got Selena back in my life I blocked out everything I had done in the past. How I was emotionally shut off from her. I knew it really messed with her head, but I couldn’t open up I could never talk about my feelings, it just wasn’t in me. I’ve never loved someone as much as I loved her, I never told her how much until we got back together. She was my world; my everything. It’s just hard to let her know, I bought her things before and I thought I was expressing my love for her… but I wasn’t. Selena wasn’t the type of girl that could be bought. I know that, but I wasn’t very good with my words.
I pulled into Selenas drive way and just sat in my car for a bit. What if the front door wasn’t unlocked, that’d mean she really didn’t want me here, but she always did… I took a deep breath questioning whether I wanted to see if the door was open yet or not. I decided to sit in my car for a little while longer. I pulled down the visor and looked at myself in the mirror.
“It’s time Justin, she’s the one, you know she’s the one you’ve got to open up to her. Let her in.” I said staring deep into my eyes convincing myself I needed to change or I’d lose her all over again.
I turned off my Range Rover and slowly walked up to her front door, I had my hand on the door knob but was scared to turn it and see that I couldn’t get in, that she didn’t want to work things out…
I turned the knob slowly, at first my heart stopped beating for a second because it seemed like it was locked, so I quickly turned it the rest of the way and the door flung open. I let out a big sigh and a smile came across my face picturing Selena walking down from her room in her pajamas at this hour of the night unlocking the door just for me.
I quietly closed the door and locked it, then started up to her room. The closer I got to her bedroom the louder the TV was, I knew she only ever had it that loud when she was upset and trying to drown out her thoughts.
I opened her bedroom door and there she was, curled up into a little ball with one of her favorite movies on the TV and an empty bowl of ice cream on her nightstand. She was still crying, and she didn’t hear me come in. I walked over to her bed and slid next to her wrapping her in my arms and kissing her cheek.
“I love you Selena.” I whispered into her ear.
She turned around and buried her face in my chest sobbing. I didn’t know what to say to calm her down so I just rubbed her back and held her tightly.
Selenas POV:
I didn’t know when Justin got here, or when he even came in my room but all the sudden I felt his touch. I was just beginning to control my tears, but knowing he was here and what we were about to talk about made me cry even harder. As I sobbed into his chest trying to gather my thoughts together, where would I start, and how would this time be different than all the rest.
After 5 minutes of him just holding me in his arms as I let out all my tears I was finally able to control myself. I lifted my head to Justins face to see he had shed a few tears as well, we both wiped each other’s cheeks and smiled into each other’s eyes. Right at this moment, it happened again, I had already forgiven him for anything and everything he had done without him having to even say a word. I always forgave him, because when you love someone the way I love him… you always forgive them no matter what.
“Selena, this times different—Really. I can open up, really…” He said still looking into my eyes.
I took a deep breath knowing I had to vocalize my feelings or I’d always have this feeling that he owned me in this relationship.