Where she went (REVISED)

Chapter 2

Chibs was the first to stand up and walk over to me before wrapping his arms around me.

"Lassie, we've missed you so much, how have you been?" Chibs questioned, I smiled at him before answering his question.

"I've missed you guys so much as well and I've been good. I stayed in New York for most of my time before coming back home." I said pulling away from the hug.

"You're going to have to tell me all about New York, once you're all settled in." Chibs responded and I nodded my head as Bobby and Piney came up and embraced me into a hug .

"I sure will." Pulling away from Bobby, Piney walked up to me next.

"We sure missed you kid." Piney said and I began to hug the older man.

"I missed you too, Piney." He pulled away with a smile on his face. I felt Jax's arm retake it's place on my shoulders before pulling me into his side and beginning to walk towards the dorms, when I noticed something in a glass casing at the end of the hall.

"I-is that John's original bike?" I questioned walking towards the 1946 Harley-Davidson that was put on display. I stood in awe of the beautiful bike as Jax came to stand beside me.

"Yeah, it is. Isn't she beautiful?" Jax questioned, I nodded my head in agreement. "C'mon, we've got some settling in and catching up to do." Walking towards his dorm with my suitcase in one of his hands and his keys in the other, I followed him into his dorm to see that it hadn't changed all that much. Jax still had the American Flag hanging above his bed, he had his two dressers on opposite sides of the room, and his bed looked like it hadn't been made in days. I smiled to myself as he turned towards me with a big smile and wide arms.

"Welcome home." I chuckled, I walked over to his bed and took a seat.

"It's just as I remembered." I said as Jax plopped next to me. "Now, tell me where John is." I said looking over at Jax who avoided my eye contact.

"A year after you left... Dad was going on a run and his brakes gave away on his bike and he lost control and... Well... He crashed into semi-truck." I felt my heart shattered as Jax spoke. Silence filled the room.

"W-what?" I stuttered out after a few minutes of complete silence. "W-why didn't any one tell me? Why didn't anyone call?" I stuttered out again.

"We tried too but when you left you never told anyone where you were going, or anything." I felt tears brimming the rims of my eyes.

"I never should of left..." I said letting few stray tears fall down my face. "It's all my fault..." I said putting my head into my hands.

"Hey, hey, it's not your fault." Jax said as he pulled me into his chest. "It was bound to happen (Y/N). Whether his brakes gave out or he got shot on that run. John, knew what he signed up for and he was ready to fall at any moment. Don't ever think or try to blame yourself for his death." I nodded unable to speak, Jax held me close as I let a few sobs come out.

Soon enough, I felt myself begin to calm down pulling away from his side. Jax turned to me and raised his hand to my cheek so he could wipe away a few straw tears that were left.

"Are you good?" Jax questioned gently with caution afraid that I might burst into tears again. I nodded my head as she sent me a sympathetic smile. "Listen, I hate to run but I need to get everything set up for your welcome home party." I nodded my head as he began to stand while I did the same.

"It's okay, I think I'm going to shower. It's been a long trip." Jax nodded before pulling me into a hug.

"Things will turn up for the better soon enough, I promise." Jax said as he turned and headed for the door before opening and closing it behind him.