Inside My Head

Her Lips

"Ar-ar-are you sure you want this?" I said grabbing Stephanie waist pulling her close to me.
She leaned forward and began and slide her tongue into  my brown lips slivering her hand up to the small of my back all the while  wrapping me in a tight embrace. Her  tongue began travel down my jawline onto my neck triggering all my soft spots and I squirmed as she gently pushed my body back onto the seats of the couch straddling me as she intensified our deep French kiss.
"Does that answer your question?"she asked pulling herself away from my hungry lips.
I had never been the type to "melt" in others arms but when I met Stephanie she just felt like I  had to have her. And now that I do I can't seem to resist any of her advances.
"Babe...what's the matter you not saying anything?"My face immediately felt  a Blush coming on something my face could never show but didn't stop me from feeling embarrassed as I finally realized she was already tugging at my shorts even though I usually lead.
"Nu-Noth-Nothing," I mumbled as she began to rest her hand over my flat stomach and kiss my small nipples though the thin tee all the while rubbing my moist interior though my panties.
"Ughhh!" I said as she began to rub faster and harder until....
Ughhhhh!....
*******
"Beep Beep Beep!!"

"Fuck!!" I screamed as the pain radiated throughout my body.
I really must change the way u set up this freaking bed, I thought just as my brother walked in seeing me naked on the floor.
"Ahhhh!!" I streaked,"get the hell out of my room!!"
He stood frozen in the doorway dropping the package just beyond the doors reach.
"I said shut the damn door!!"I screamed trying use my hands and legs to cover my delicate parts.
He finally blushed hard slamming the door behind him as I heard his rushed footsteps quickly find their way away from my door. Lifting myself up I got on the bed and put my panties back on still using the cover as a block the view to the door I slipped on a teen top from on top the dresser.
Breathing deeply I took off the cover and then I rushed for the doorknob and locked it.
"Wooh"I exhaled in relief as I slid down the doorway pulling my knees up to my chest. I began to crave the feeling our pleasure from dream as I then remembered the girls appearance and name.
A small tear came down my cheek as I began to think about how it got to this. She is still my desire even though I can't have her.
I looked down to notice the wet spot growing on my panties and began to rub my boobs though the tee.  Soon enough my right hand was inside the new blue stripped panties I had just slipped on and began to rub my my hot snatch.
"Uhhhhh ahhhh!!" I moaned as I slipped my index finger inside my hot canal as I rubbed my boobs moaning while leaning against the locked bedroom door all the while fingering myself deeper and deeper imagining Alicia's tongue flicking over it. "Omg yes yes yes please fuck me Alicia. Omg I love you so much," I screamed in pure bliss.
"OMG" I screeched as I shuddered and shook like leaf cumming  inside of my now drenched blue stripped ribbon pinned panties. I fell forward my index finger still lodged deep inside my hot needy pussy.
"What the hell is wrong with me?" I mumbled to myself  as moans of pleasure past and my heavy laboring subsided while my body came down from its orgasm high  the tears welled up began to streak down my chocolate toned cheeks. I pulled my finger out of my tight hole and brought to my mouth sticking it inside balling up into the fetal position as I stuck my middle finger along with my index finger inside my mouth sucking both. I pulled them out and held them against as if they were hers. I could at least pretend, I thought to myself.
"Why don't you see it? Why don't you love me the way I love you?" I spoke quietly into the room now lit with sunlight but still mostly dark as tears began to fall even harder and my sobs got softer until it was nothing more than a silent shriver and shake and tears flower from the ever breaking dams I called my eyes.

"Could u pass the salt?" I heard my Dad ask someone.
"Sure no problem," Kyle,my brother said just as I walked into the kitchen.
"Hey looks like someone's up,"my mother said,"Omg sweetie u look terrible wat happened to u!!" She said turning towards me and gasping as she saw my probably worn down appearance.
"No I'm fine I'm just out of it", I said ,"I just wanted to make sure y'all didn't leave or anything before I go call Steph."
"You sure honey you  can invite her over if u want", she offered as she served the eggs from the bowl of food to my brother who still was staring at me as if I had a knife in my forehead.
"Nah I think I'm good,"I replied knowing that it wouldn't end well if I tried to make a move on my best friend and also my other best friends boyfriend in my own house.
"Okay honey just come in the room if you ever want to talk," she said before turning back to grab a different bowl of food.
I walked off into the living room hearing their muffled voices as I walked off to attempt a normal conversation with my increasingly more frequent masterbation material.
I grabbed out of my phone my jeans pocket mindlessly scrolling by hough my notifications before look at the time.
Dang its already 8 am I better tell  im not coming unless she'll kill me tomorrow.
"What the hell Alex I've been calling you all damn morning!!"
"Hey Steph"I said rolling my eyes while grinning slightly.
"So what were you doing that was solo important that you couldn't be here for your best friend huh?"
"Ummmm...ummm you know just...uhhh..girl stuff"I said blushing slightly while pulling legs under me not wanting to admit that I had masterbated to her then cried myself to sleep when I heard a beep come from my phone.
"Wait I gotta go to my room first," I said hopping off the couch and walking upstair.
"Ouuuu did u get a boyfriend
...FINALLLYY?"
"Nooooo​ how do u know I even want one"I rebutted hard while blushing falling on my bed and burying my head in my pillow.
"Maybe my best friend is interested in girls then?" She said in a giggling tone as heard her cute laugh in the background.
"I uhhhh...."
"Okay okay I know you don't really you just need to find the right guy right?" She said in tone that she used when she felt she knew what I was about to say,she was always right....but not about this one.
"Yeah...I uh..I uh am not coming to school today." I said my voice slightly trembling as my heart shook with frailness as she said it.
"Okay then maybe I'll skip school and come over to your house when your parents and brother leave. Steph replied in a excited tone as I heard her name being called into the background."Alright I gotta go I'll see yo later though. Text me when they leave."
"Beep," the sound of the phone made as the call ended. I sat there with the phone still to my ear.
"I Love You" I said once again too late too quiet too afraid.

A/N I plan on updating each part by the following Friday but I may be a bit late if you are enjoying reading it as much as I am writing plz comment and pm me to keep me on schedule thx and hope you enjoy the book.