February 13,
Everything is ready.
The flowers, the candles, the music, and of course, I am ready.
All settled.
Nag set up ako ng date for me and...
My bestfriend.
Since magva-valentines na bukas, gusto ko siyang solohin for now.
Its been a years and years simula nung naging magkaibigan kami.
Nakakatuwa ngang isipin na sa tinagal tagal na naming magkaibigan, hindi parin nagbabago ang treatment namin sa isa't isa.
Daig pa nga siguro namin ang mag-jowa eh.
But the thing is,
may Girlfriend siya.
Yep. Girlfriend.
Let me get this straight.
He's a he.
And yes, I'm a girl.
So, what's with the fancy valentine treat?
Wala lang.
Hindi naman siguro masamang mag effort para sa taong mahal mo, 'di ba?
Hindi lang mahal as a friend.
Yung... mahal talaga, as who he is.
I've been hiding these feelings for ages.
Simula pa nung una.
I've always considered my choices. My "what-if's" overwhelemed the "what-is".
What if, lumayo siya kasi nga, hindi niya 'ko gusto and he doesn't want to make things awkward between us?
What if, he'll be disgusted with me? With this affection I have for him?
What if our friendship would be over, because of such mistake?
I thought, no. I'd never take a risk.
But, i guess people do change. Just like how my perspective did.
Since wala naman din talaga akong pag-asa dahil 5 taon nang taken ang puso niya, i wont just sit idly by.
Actually, he's not that kind of guy na gustong makipagkaibigan kahit kanino.
Kahit maraming nagkakagusto sakanya, friendly lang siya pero hindi ganon ka attached.
Hindi katulad ng friendship namin.
Marami na ring nagtatanong sakin dati kung magkaano-ano ba talaga kami.
Kasi daw parang ako yung girlfriend eh.
Ha, I wish.
Malamang sa malamang, syempre, paano ba siya maaalagaan nung girlfriend eh nasa kabilang school yun.
"Fernandez!" Napatingin ako sa may bandang kaliwa.
I stared as if nothing else were around us.
The galaxies behind him made me focus on him more.
It's like i cant take my eyes off him.
I don't want to.
And there i see, the same old Gavin, my Gavin.
But his face has changed though, 'di na siya si chubby Gavin.
