This is the one that started it all
Alll the late night crying, Depression, & my very first heartbreak
I met him my the summer before my 8th grade year
I was really nervous about meeting him
and so was he with me
our hook up was sort of a set up
He was light skin, tall, and had the prettiest hazel eyes ive ever seen
Then the spell was cased, I was mezmerized at that very moment
Our relationship happened kinda fast
we dove in head first for each other
I was so young and so dumb i didnt know a thing about love
But i know i feel for this one with everything i had
We were only together for a couple onths before he told me he loved me
i was so happy and so head gone
That christmas i decided to take our relationship to the next level
i wanted him to be my first everything
&& so he was... We made love that day
It wasnt that good but it was all i had
about a month later i started talkin to him less & less
((Before i had a cell phone))
I had no way to talk to him, secret meetings were just every once in a while
Then i found out He was cheating on me with a girl named nene ((-________________-))
he broke up with me when i comforted him about it
i lost it that day. My smile was alwayz a frown. I was so depressed. he got in my head.
Then around the time of october my birthday came and he said he wanted to try it again and work it out
I was in a relationship at the time but i was so in love with marquise i couldnt think so i cheated
i went back to marquise with arms open hoping we could fix things
But thingz got worse
Not only did i find out that he was still talking((having sex)) to nene
he had another girlfriend named IMani ((----___________________----))
Back then i was really immature and dumb. i argued with both of them and yelled
i dont know what i was thinkin
i wanted to hurt him so bad
Physically >:[
i was like a mad balck women
finally i decided it wasnt worth it
he wasnt even defending me. he was defending both of them smh
i decided to leave all three of them alone. i was done stressin myself and i kept getting hurt over and over again.
Me & him talked after that but it was short & sweet
he tried to come get "Fixs" alot but i wasnt having it
We lost contact for along time
Then i found out from a friend that he had passed away from pnemonia
i didnt even know he was sick, untill he was dead
i didnt attend the funeral in fear that i would loss it
but i paid my respects in my own way
I cryed for 15min then i was over it
I will miss him and ill alwayz have mad love for him but i couldnt go there with him anymore
He didnt apoligize for what he did to me but i apologized to him
I will love him alwayz and dearly
But im happy the pain he put me through made me stronger
RIP Quise
:)
