You

Day one/last one

Day one
Day one with the thought of not being with you anymore
I let work engulfed me. From 11:45 to basically midnight
Smita was cashier and somehow I kept glancing at that station
Somehow with her braid done like yours--
I kept seeing you in the corner of my eye but then when I looked closely, it was just smita
I kept it composed until you texted me.
I cried a little bit during my break.
Regine was there
I can see that she's happy that it's my turn to feel this pain
When my shift ended, I drove to Ag and downtown for lettuce.
I saw maddie and I didn't even cry when I told her
I had five guy's burger for the first time and while I was waiting for my order I had this sudden idea in my head that you and I need to eat here but then I remembered that there is no you and I anymore
Rrico has been keeping me company
We chilled and watch movies-- without you
I'm sad when I think that I could've stayed quite a little longer to enjoy your company
But then I'm not as sad anymore when I think how that would affect me because I'd just be hurt either way
I miss you, I hope you know that
I'll miss you for awhile but Rrico and everyone else keeps saying that I deserve better
Do I?

2.25.17