My time is almost up

this is my life

I'm Malia. A 15 year old girl, growing up in England, and well I guess this is the story of how my life changed before I died. Don't get your hopes up, this isn't a happy story, there is no happy ending or happily ever after, most of my teenage life I've had depression, although nobody knows outside of my family. Nobody knows anything about me, not really, not even my best friend Emily. we were complete opposites, she was always happy and smiling, wears bright coloured clothes, she is popular, she has a boyfriend, she is extremely beautiful, she has bright red hair that suits her so well. But me, and the rest of our 'squad' sit at lunch with each other acting like complete freaks while she sighs and roles her eyes, but yeah I hardly smile or laugh, most of my clothes are black and grey, apart from the odd yellow, I'm not popular and well, single, I have been for years, I'm not exactly beautiful and my hair is platinum blonde. in our 'squad' there's me, Emily, Scott, Mona, Caroline, Lucy, Zoe and Isabelle and there used to be Vicki, but we will talk about that later. So now you know more about me and my friends although there is something you should know about me. I have depression, like I've already said, but I also cut, again nobody knows this. I'm a shy geek that spends her life writing and fangirling over TV shows and musicals *cough* Hamilton *cough* and nobody really knows my story, they guess but there is so much that nobody knows, hopefully they will never know but I guess all secrets get told eventually, I tell everyone I'm fine, just tired, but they don't know that I'm tired because I was laid awake crying until 4am, but this is my life. For now anyway.