Mess.

Chapter 1: {Jeanna's Dairy}

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26/09/2016
Time: 13:20
/It's been so long since I felt this way... all fucked up and sad maybe a little sexually needy. Something's wrong with me I'm having mixed emotions flying everywhere, one moment I'll fantasize about being with Leon Quicer ; all that hair pulling and rough sex we'll have.. that deep husky voice of his makes my panties pool and his sensual neck kisses just makes me desire him.. inside of me.
  /However, my bestfriend, Daymian that I think I am attracted to because of his personality and his loyalty ;makes me feel guilty about fantasizing about Quicer... He normally doesn't really care about me and doesn't give two shits about my emotions, I try not to be hurt about it but I'm a girl afterall; you can't expect me to feel okay with it.  He's overall really nice, caring and stuff but sometimes the lack of attention he gives is just overwhelmingly sad for me, I guess it's him and I can't control it.
/I can't seem to tell who I want to be with but hey I have a better chance with Leon but I might find true love with Daymian... sometimes I wish I could end myself so I don't have to deal with such confusions in life everything's wrong and i was a mistake...
/Dad owes $2million and mom is over working herself while he drinks everyday and brings women back him and fucks them in my bedroom mostly as it's the most spacious one in the house...
/ I don't think I can take this bs anymore it's too much I had enough and I wish I could just escape this nightmare and live like a normal human being.
-Jeanna-
 
{sorry that it's so short ! }
Do hope you look forward to the next chapter
• Daymian's incident •