I broke a promise I made to you & you felt betrayed.
You set out on a revenge spree.
You snubbed me, yet I still reached out to you.
You broke my heart, yet I still loved you.
I tried to woo you again after all that, yet you turned me down.
I decided to let go, not because I wanted to, but because I thought it would make you happy & all I ever wanted was to make you happy.
Two months down the road I had a terrible dream about you.
I reached out because I still cared, then you told me you were OK but angry at me.
Angry because I let go when all you wanted was for me to hold on & fight for our love.
Now I am shattered, torn between keeping the defensive walls I built around my heart up or allowing them to crumble & be swept away by the wind to let you in once again.
My heart yarns & screams for you, thereby numbing my brain from thought & logic.
I wish I can think with my head but my heart prevents such.
I love you so much, yet I am scared to give you the power to destroy me completely just when I am nearly done rebuilding me back up.
I guess this is what is known in some circles as Trust Issues.
I am trapped between the devil & the deep blue sea.
