My mom still doesn't understand why I'm always in pain. Or why I'm still in pain. Or why I have pain at all. I've missed so many days at school already. Whenever I miss school there's only 2 reasons why. My mom booked a doctors appointment to get my medicine because I'll lost "a lot" of weight. So I have to take anorexic pills to stop losing weight. The pills aren't even helping; in fact I think it makes things worse. (But I'd never tell my mom that.) The second reason I'd stay home is because I'm stomach hurts. NOTHING else ever hurts. It's only my stomach. I hate staying home.
The days I go to school it's always the same thing. Sit with my friends, Isabella and Alex. Then I walk to first period with Isabella as we head we head to choir. Usually in choir these other girls always talk sh*t about me and I hate that class because of them. Then I walk to math and I turn around in my seat and smile to my friends Sky and Josh. Math is my absolute favorite class and I'm glad it's there after my most hated class. Then I'll walk to third period social studies with Josh and Alex. Social studies is just an average class. I go to forth period with Josh and talk with Sky in the class, always. I walk to fifth period by myself but Isabella is in that class so we have so much fun with each other. After that class Isabella and I walk to lunch but to me lunch is hell. Sometimes I bring my lunch but it doesn't matter. Whenever I took a bit of my food my stomach would burn. It's like my stomach spontaneously combusted then I go to the bathroom and cry from the heat of the food. I come back in to the cafeteria and act like nothing happened. Isabella notice that I'm in pain but she always talks to me next period. I just act as if nothing happened and continued the conversation with Sky, Josh, Isabella and Alex. After lunch I go to PE with Isabella and Sky and they ask me what's wrong and I always say "I'm fine", even though I'm clearly not. In PE I sit with the coaches because my doctors say I'm not healthy enough to do most physical activities. I'm glad for that because I can barely run for 30 seconds without almost throwing up. After PE I walk to seventh period with Sky. It's reading which is the class with my favorite teacher. Lastly I have eighth period with Isabella and we just laugh and joke in that class.
When I get home the pain just seems worse. First I get off at my bus stop and walk the rest of the way home with Isabella and the heat of the sun is to much for me to handle. I always dehydrated before I get home. Once I'm in my house I say hello to my mom and go get a snack. I always try to get a small snack so I won't get sick. Then I go up stairs to my room and fall asleep. I'm always so very tired from school that I just plop myself in my bed and take a 2 to 3 hour nap. Then I have to do everything so quickly which is so exhausting. I start my homework then haft way mom will tell me it's dinner time and sometimes she cooks something I cook. I like it better when I cook because I'll make enough to where I can have a small portion that won't make me sick and a good portion for mom to eat. Then I'll finish (or maybe throw the rest away) my food and go back up stairs and finish my homework. Then I take a shower and pray with my mom before I go to bed. At home I get extremely dizzy.
Everyday, through out the day I feel exhausted, nauseous, and as if my stomach is a slushy. I always wonder what was wrong but didn't think much of what was happening to me. After all I am just a 7th grader.
