One Direction Oneshots (boyxboy)

Hush Hush (Larry)

I logged on to twitter and started a livestream. In the next two seconds i already had over a thousand viewers and fans were already starting to comment.

"What's wrong, Harry."

"You look sad, babe."

"You look like you've been crying."

I sighed.

"You guys were right." I started, "you've always been right. Every look, every subtle touch... You were right."

I let out a broken chuckle.

"I love Louis." I looked straight into the camera.

"I just wish I could say the same for Louis." Tears threatened to fall. "He used to love me too, but things have changed.

Hush hush, shhh.

Hush hush.

I wiped my eyes with my thumb.

"I... I just want to tell you the truth. The real. Truth." I said.

"When I first came on X Factor i knew I was bisexual. But I've never actually had a boyfriend before. And then I just saw Louis and..." My throat swelled up and the first tear rolled down my cheek, as I remembered the day Louis and i first met.

"It was kinda funny. Me and him first met in a bathroom." I laughed, even though I wanted to cry. It hurt to laugh. It hurt because it was so fake it was so unreal. There was no truth in that laugh, just like there had been no truth in Louis and I's relationship. Or in the lies we told the world.

"I just took one look in those eyes and suddenly my heart took control of everything. My mind went blank and Everything happened so fast. "

I didn't mean to kiss you.

You didn't mean to fall in love.

The viewers had shot up and were now 10,000. "I can't believe i have this many viewers already." A smile played on my lips, but it didn't mean anything. "I'm really sorry that we lied to you guys. You forgive us though right. It wasn't our choice. I guess if we did tell you earlier Louis would probably still love me, huh?" My thoughts got away from me and I almost let them go back to that night when my heart was ripped out of my chest. But I stopped myself right in time.

"No, no, no." I mumbled under my breath as my hands pulled at my hair. I pulled my knees closer to me on the bed.

I looked at the comments and read some of them. "Hello to Sweden." I said, chuckling bitterly. How was I acting so casually when on the inside i wanted to break down and jump off of the balcony.

"I'm sorry guys. I just... This is really shit you know." I looked back over the comments. One stood out to me. It stood out because it was from Niall.

"Don't cry Harry."

I never meant to hurt you.

We never meant for it to mean this much.

Hush, hush now

• • •

"Liam?"

My voice was small, and it croaked out, and cracked.

"Louis, are you crying?" Liam said, looking up from his phone. His eyes looked over me in concern.

"Come here." He said patting the spot next to him on the couch.

I broke. And like a 5 year old scared by a thunderstorm, i ran to him. Tears fell as i jumped into his open arms. I clutched his shirt in my fists and cried into him for what seemed like hours. He was talking but i was too broken to hear what he was saying. I felt his hand on my back as he rubbed it soothingly, trying to calm me down.