At one with one shine

Cory Day to Day

Is anyone going to rescue me from what my future may hold for me? If not I guess I'm going to have to fight this battle alone. I'm doing this for me and only me. Frequently having that irritating lump in your throat, is beginning to bug me more and more each and every day. I've never really felt at one with myself, until that one dark and horrifying night.. 

I pass through the village and towards the hills, where I can see my small family home. Stacey, my little sister, waiting patiently for me to arrive home from my paper round pounces at me in excitement as I enter the gate at the top of the garden path. I take my time to get to the front door and suddenly I stop at the door to hear the sounds of them arguing yet again, so I quickly send my sister up the stairs with a coloring book I spent my weeks wages on, especially for her at times like this. I take my time to place down my red paper bag and take off my hat and coat and abruptly enter the room to see something that no child should ever have to see at any age regardless of what the situation could or couldn't be. Knowing this situation is about to go from bad to worse, my head spins in circles as I march across the room towards my mother and help her off the carpet that seems to be smothered in blood that is dripping from the ends of her hair to only be punched myself by my someone I once called Daddy. 

I lift myself up of the floor and managed to scrape this one with just a black eye to my face I reach out for my mothers hand and she puts her hand into my I slowly grip onto her tightly and pull us both up the stairs and it seems to be happening again mother has to powder out my face to hide the black eye and I have to check my mothers head for cuts or any harmful signs. After our thorough checks I have to grab the car from round the back and drive her to the hospital making sure my sister is buckled in the back seat and my mum has pressure to her wounds. With the rate my fathers going at we may as well have our own hospital bed and room. We all get checked over and come home to find him zonked out on the kitchen floor surrounded by cans and glasses with alcohol sprayed out across the floor and his clothes we place a blanket over him and leave him their.

Mum follows me through the house carrying Stacey asleep in her arms marching us all up the stairs to bed tucking in my sister and leaving me to get to bed. Mum shouts my name from her bedroom "Cory, come here please..." she pauses to shout again "Cory!" 

I quickly leap out of my gaming chair and run across the landing for my mum to cry to me the words I'm used to hearing by now 

"Your father. He's done it again, he's taken the money I was saving for your sisters birthday." 

Before I could even reply to my mum we hear the slamming of the front door, if I'm stood here with my mum and Stacey is fast asleep who else could it be other then him again. Mum demands I go and search for him, I assure her that I will find him and keep in contact with her. Every time I go searching I go and sit on the hill side where not even my mother can see me from her bedroom and gaze my eyes up towards the twinkling stars. I text her every so often to say stuff like 'No sign of him' 'Lenny hasn't seen him either' 'It'll be okay mum he will be home soon'. I never manage to find him anywhere on my way back home but mums always asleep when I arrive home and dad slips in to the house in the early hours of the morning and curls up on the sofa. So it's the best of both worlds for me and it assures mum that everything is okay and it's not as though dad can put me in the wrong with mum because he probably can't remember. 

I awake at 6 am every single day, and get myself up dressed teeth done. I get my paper bag with everything folded inside and I deliver them around my local area and then I come back home to mum trying to wake him up again so as usual I have to go and wake Stacey and get her ready for school. I drive my sister to school and pop off to work once I've finished work I drive to the hill side and gaze up at the stars. I drive over to my gran's house to collect my little sister and as a treat I take her over to the chip shop and buy her a kids fish and chips to take home. We arrive back home, only to find dad doing it to mum again. So I remove Stacey from the room and put her  in my room with chips and we turned the music up on my radio to avoid her having to hear what was going on down stairs. 

I always look out for my sister and make sure she is provided with what she needs otherwise it's not going to work out. The last day of school for Stacey until the half term is slowly coming up so I prepare a trip for her to Woodland's Farm the day after to celebrate plus its a two in one bonus as it get's us both away from mum and dad. I get Stacey up for her last day at school and prepare her for a big day it isn't just the last day of term it's the last day of year 3 for her. Gran picks her up as usual as I have to make my way over to work to get more earnings to put in my wallet ready for our fun bonding day.