circus - joshler

_rosy_

it took a few moments for josh to fully register what was happening. after several hours of walking to where the train had stopped and hiding out in a luggage car until he was sure about confronting tyler, josh was certain that he was ready.

maybe.

the early hours of show day brought a rosy tinge to the sky that made josh feel romantic, which was a welcomed feeling after he hadn't felt anything besides guilt and loneliness since he jumped out of the moving train, leaving tyler and his undying love behind. a relentless aching in josh's groin made it impossible to ignore how much he was craving tyler's touch. he had to face it: he was addicted to tyler and had already made a silent promise to pounce on the brunette the first chance he got.

josh was careful not to let anyone see him as he stepped carefully towards tyler's train car. the gravel under his feet crumpled loudly and it would be easy for anybody in the troupe that he was avoiding- specifically pete- to notice that he had returned.

a moment was taken to psyche himself up and run a hand though his hair, but josh eagerly pushed into his companion's room and was met with silence and darkness .

"ty? are you in here?"

josh squinted in the darkness at a motionless figure in the bed.

"c'mon, tyler. i know you must be mad- and probably confused- but i'm here to apologize." josh reasoned with the younger boy, who was laying down and facing the back wall, and flicked on the dim light of the room.

sensing that tyler was probably giving him the silent treatment, josh decided not to back down. the brunette was a notoriously light sleeper and would definitely be awake by now. josh kicked off his shoes and jumped into bed, landing heavy against tyler's back.

still nothing.

a faint panic wafted over josh for a second, but long enough to make him roll tyler onto his back. the unconscious brunette was deathly pale and drenched in sweat.

an empty bottle rolled out of tyler's hand.

"what the hell did you do?!" josh held tyler's face in his hands, "please, ty. why would you do this to yourself."

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it took josh a while to realize that trying to shake tyler awake wasn't going to do any good. he waited for a while with with heart in his throat, waiting for any sign of movement. josh cuddled up to tyler and put an ear to his chest. a slow pulse rattled from under his rib cage.

"just passed out, huh, ty?" josh looked up at the chewed up lips and dark circles under the boy's eyes, considering for a moment that he may have been the reason for them, "i guess i'll see you at the show tomorrow after you wake up. . . then i can give you a proper hello."

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haven't updated in a while (sorry about that)

i'll update every week now i think :)