You know I never understood what love was. Even these days I still contemplate on the difference between love and being in love. Here's my story...
It all started when I had just got out of a one year and sixth month relationship. At the beginning of the relationship I had so much love and care, or so I thought...
One weekend I went to the mall, where I met this girl named ivy. She was dark-skin, average height with braids. I thought she was so fine..."omg" . When I first met her, she was going for a friend of mine. They didn't turn out to good. A couple months later I came in contact with Ivy again.
At the beginning, it was just simple conversation like hey, how you doing type shit. Then after a month or so we became closer. I didn't want to rush into anything because I had just got out of a relationship, but I really liked her. Ivy and I continued talking until we finally decided to meet up again.
When Ivy and I met up again she was very quiet and shy. I didn't know what to expect. Here's this girl that I've only met once before and now I'm meeting her again. All I could ask myself is what do I do?What do I say? How do I feel? Should I speak first? All these thoughts in my head and not one could come out so I just sat, quiet.
10 minutes later...
Ivy begins to speak. Hearing her voice is like listening to waves hit the shore. She says to me " Bri why are you so quiet?". I heard her speak but didn't comprehend what she was saying. My mind was focused on something other than where I was or who I was with but I couldn't figure out what it was I was thinking about and why.
I was zoned out for a good 5 minutes, when I heard someone yell my name. I didn't know who It was. I looked around but saw no one coming towards me or anything, so I just figured it was my mind. I focused my attention back to ivy.
That day was so awkward. When I got home she texted me.
Ivy: what was up with you today?
Me: Idek I'm sorry for that.
Ivy: it's ok. How about next time we just meet at my house.
Me: sure, that would be better.
A few days went by and all we did was text. Saturday approaches and I go to her house. I don't know what to expect, I have to meet her mom and her little sister. I pulled into the drive way and texted her letting her know that I was outside. She comes outside and tells me to come in. When I went inside I didn't see much just saw the living room and a door to the left.
we went into her room for a little while and talked. I had about two to three hours before I was gonna leave, when...she looks at me and says "I love you". At this point, I'm shook asf. I respond saying "I'm not gonna say sum ion mean just yet and lie to you". She doesn't like my response but she doesn't get mad. She understands.
