What If

What If I Didn't Jump Off The Intertube

Hi, I'm Mackenzie and this is a very personal story so be nice in the comments. A little background before I go into this story. My family has a reunion every year that used to be at their house but they were trying to sell it so we had to find a different place to hang out with my cousins so we chose Eagle Rivers Resort in Eagle River, Wisconsin. Up by Florence, Wisconsin pretty much. I have 14 cousins. Well, Now 12 but that's not important. I was I think 14, may be 15 when this happened. We were on this red, white and blue inter tube. It was called something like Fast or something. We were having so much fun tubing. The water getting in our faces. My sister screaming. My cousin and I holding on for dear life. We had stopped, we were I think behind my uncle Toms boat. A super fast boat that had no mercy for those on the tube. You would be flung off if you didn't hold on tight enough. It was quite fun. We had been inter tubing for the past hour and my sister asked me if me and my cousin wanted to jump off the inter tube.
I reluctantly accepted to do it. I really had no choice because it was 2-1. They jumped as I slipped and was trapped under it.
"Get her out!", yelled my mom, or something over those lines. I had on my life jacket. I saw myself. I was screaming help over and over again. I felt myself breathing, if I remember, in water and swallowing water. I tried first pounding on the inter tube and saying that I'm here, I'm under here. It was no use. I then noticed pushing up made me sink but then I would go a little farther out. Thank goodness I thought of it. Since then I was what you could say back in my body. During the duration of me looking at me struggling I'm pretty sure I figured out. I was just out of my body what felt like at least a hour even though it was probably a few seconds. My brain was just racing once I was back which made me think of the power of water above. I literally felt like I was going to die. My only hope was this water thing (I called it waterlympics) to get me out.
Now, before I finish it off. If I could change it what would happen. The first thing that comes to mind is that I wouldn't be scared as heck to jump off tubes. Especially inter tubes.
So, in conclusion, I would not want to change it and it made me who I am. It has shaped me. Plus it was fun using a different part of my brain. I was a little shaken up after words but it was fun. All in all, our darkest moments shape us to ourselves.
Bye!