In Her Forest Eyes

Prologue

Love. A mere word in the English language, and just one in a dictionary of 9,500.    But love is so much more than that.  It is happiness, passion, trust, faith, memories, lust, selflessness, commitment, and unconditional care for another person.  For some, love may bring hatred, depression, pain, betrayal, abuse, destruction, and death.  When someone finds it, I like to think of it as coming to a crossroads without a map. One path will be flat, surrounded by flowers, mountains, and valleys with many stops that make the trip to the end worth while.  The other is barren.  It's a constant tedious uphill climb where you will be left with no water, no food, and when you get to the end, if you get to the end, you will be left drained and weak. 

The path you take isn't a guessing game, however, it depends on the other person to lead you.  If this person is you're true soul mate, the real person you were destined to be with and believe that you can't live without, then they will ultimately lead you down the good path.  If this person is all wrong for you, meaning they don't bring you happiness, and you're left unsure that they are your ideal match, then you will be lead down the bad path.  If you're lucky, you can realize it before you take that path, and turn around.  Now don't get me wrong, the good path won't be perfect.  There will be small inclinations and minor setbacks, but if the one you love is holding your hand, you can make it past them.  Like they say, a relationship takes compromise; meaning you have to realize that although that person may not be perfect, they're perfect for you, and that you have to agree to disagree.

I have come to the crossroads before, and everytime I've had to turn around.  I guess that makes me lucky in a way.  I'm sure mine is out there, somewhere, somebody out there will be the one to take my hand and lead me down the path of true love; I just have to find them.  A very wise person once said that love comes in unexpected packages.  You may meet the person you fall in love with in the most unlikely of places, and they themselves may be someone you never thought you would fall for.  Maybe this will happen to me.  Maybe I'll get in a car accident, and I'll marry the person who lends me a cell phone to call home.  Maybe I'll go for a run, drop my keys, and I'll end up with the person who returns them to me.  All I know, is that when it happens, I hope I feel it.  I don't want to end up at the crossroads and walk down the wrong path.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that when or if I find my soulmate, I want to be sure from the start, I don't want to take a risk. 

Perhaps I'm asking too much, but am I really?  I'm not sure myself.  All I really want is true love.  I've seen it, we've all seen it, so why couldn't it happen to me?  There's no way of knowing where I'll meet this person, who it will be, or if they even exist, but if they do, I'm making it my mission to find them, so I can walk down the path of true love.  I guess you could say that's always been my dream; my one goal in life; to fall in love with the right person and spend my life with them.  If I don't do anything in life, if I end up living in a box on the side of the street, or whether I become the CEO of a big name corporation, I want it to be with the person I love.  I want to find my soulmate.