I cry. The only way i know how to express that i am unhappy. Alone, To myself, and In the dark. How do i stop it? Not a clue comes to mind. You can talk to me.. Coming from the people that care for me most. No No No, I cant. They don't understand, they try to.
Its like words on top of words that make sense to me, in my head; but never come out. They wont come out. I try, but I make no sense. fuck.Why me? The confusion is endless. I wish i knew how to fix this. I can't do this by myself. I DON'T WANT HELP. Ill stay to myself, fuck it. If i could i would talk to someone, i don't know how so i cry. I stay silent, i don't say a word.
Mirror fogs up, hot water flooding my body, head faced down in my knees, hands over my head, eyes closed shut and i go into a zone where i am by myself; i am figuring my own mind out, I understand myself better than anyone...
Tears..
this is to help anyone who is going through rough times. i will be back with more..
To Be Continued..
-Lyssa💞