How Does It Feel? (EVANSTAN)

Chapter 2

Aye! back again with another chapter! Sorry for the late night update, but I hope you enjoy it! Warnings: Contains a bit of smut(really dirty shit!) cause I'm gay trash... please forgive me if it's bad, I've never wrote smut this explicit before! Also, the best place to start the above arrangment from TWS, is after the smut ;)

Rob pushed me against my kitchen counter, his lips attacking my neck, making me moan while tugging at his hair. He moved our hips together in slow motions, groaning loudly. I flipped us so that I was the one pushing him against the counter, and he was the vulnerable one. A lot was racing through my mind, some things i couldn't control. Sebastian hasn't talked to me for a week, so I've been out with Rob... well, in with Rob.

I pushed us towards my bedroom, Rob hitting a wall while messing with my belt. I slipped my hands under his shirt and felt around his masculine body. I was turned around as Rob pushed me onto the bed, his body hovering over mine. He had removed my shirt, his lips and tongue now tracing over my bare chest, my hands in his hair. I tugged when his tongue traced down my v-line.

He slowly tugged off my jeans, a gasp leaving my mouth as he ran his hands up my legs. Before I knew it, he was taking me in his mouth, a loud moan escaping my mouth. My hands were in his hair still, pulling much harder, earning a groan from him. He stopped downing me and crawled up to my lips, kissing me hard.

He still had his jeans on, which I gladly removed. He was attacking my neck, his lips sucking on my pulse while his hands did magic to me. Robert and I have been more of a friends with benefits type thing when we both needed it. So far, this has been going on for more than a week. He finally decided to get down to it and he slowly started to enter me. I drew my head back into the sheets, moaning his name.

"Oh, God, Jesus..." he breathed in my ear, his breath and thrusts getting faster. I couldn't help but think of Sebastian while Rob made dirty, fake love to me. I wish it were Sebastian, but that's never going to happen. We both finally hit our breaking points and gasped, Rob's body plopping down on mine. He lay there for a few moments, contemplating on his decision. This was the worst part of it. Leaving, or staying.

He got up and stood from the bed, finding his pants and shirt. He looked back once he was done and put on his glasses, moving his eyes to the ground.

"Call me later," he said, exiting the room. I heard the front door to my apartment close, making me close my eyes shut. I felt the emotions starting to surface, reality starting to come back into play. I had never cried more in my life. I pulled my knees to my chest and sobbed, saying Sebastian's name over and over again. I never wanted this, I had never wanted to fall for my best friend. But I did, and boy, do I regret it.

I got up and pulled my boxers on, along with some loose sweats. I sat on my bed, looking around my room. My eyes rested upon a book that rested on my desk, the anger and sadness coming back to me. I got up from the bedside and walked to my desk, picking up the book and throwing it across the room. From that point, I just started yelling, sobbing, and throwing things at my wall.

Everything hurt. It all hurt just so much, and I didn't know how to supress my feelings. I couldn't. I just couldn't. I ended up on the floor, feeling disgusted at myself for sleeping, no, fucking, Robert for our own pleasure. I decided to go take a shower, cleansing the remains off my body. I couldn't do this anymore. I needed to talk to Seb, and soon. I can't go on like this.

Hey! Someone pass the holy water so i can rinse my eyes and soul with it? Thanks, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, i was listening to the stucky playlist I made :D

But yeaH! Thanks again! I'll see all yee tomorrow!!!!! -panpan