Do not expect me to tell my f'n story here. I am not those girls na kinukwento kung paano sila inaapi at paano sila naging ganun. Echos. Nandito ako para ISAMPAL sa inyo ang katotohanan.
This may sound bad pero, GOOD GIRLS ARE WEAK. Lagi na lang sila ang inuutusan. Lagi na lang sila ang kawawa! Oh wake up sisters! Ang bawat tao ay dapat hindi inuutusan! These girls should be strong.
Me? You're asking about me? Oh, you have no idea. Alam niyo ba kung bat ko sinasabi ito? Simple, Ayaw ko kayong maging tulad ko. Ironic right? Ako itong nagsasabi sa inyo pero ako yung weak? Haha! Kung tutuusin, I should be strong right now. I mean, Physically, I am strong. I can take down those bitches who will get on my way. I would. Kayang kaya ko sila! Pero something prevents me from doing it.
Love? Yeah. That. That stupid thing for stupid people. And I wish na kaya kong patayin yung lalaking yun for teaching me that thing.
Ugh! Did I mention na hindi ko babanggitin ang story ko? Well, I regret it.
I was one of those people--stupid people. And wait, I am still one of them. I can't hurt someone. Its like a power, believe me or not. Nung una I thought na it was a joke na sinasabi nila about that thing. Pero when I am the one who is experiencing it, I almost died!
2 things. Just two things na dapat kong ishare sa inyo.
My family. Dalawa lang kami ng pinsan ko, well marami kami pero siya lang ang first cousin ko. The problem with her is that she envies everyone. Gusto niya kung anong meron ng iba meron siya. But mine is a different case. Hindi kami masyadong close-- well, close kami kasi nagsasabi siya sa akin ng secrets-- About her insecurities and such. She is a spoiled brat. A f^cking Spoiled brat and that is the reason why I hate her. 1 year older siya sa akin. At isa pang ikinagagalit ko sa kanya?
Ako lagi ang nauutusan! Ako lagi ang may kasalanan! Ako lagi ang kailangan umintindi! Ako lagi si mabait! Ako lagi ang dapat magbigay.
WTF RIGHT? Nakakainis talaga kasi I have this 7-year old girl cousin sa mother side. Ako rin ang laging pinapagalitan. And when I attemp on explaining my side, they always give me this damn reason.
" Pagbigyan mo na! Ikaw ang mas nakakatanda kaya alam mo dapat kung ano ang tama at mali! Intindihin mo na lang! "
Shitty right? What about my other cousin? She is older than me for pete's sake! Pero ano? Ako pa rin ang laging mali!
Once nagkaroon kami ng away niyan. Then my tita, her mother, got mad at.. well surprise! It's me again!
Ugh! Im tired! Siya si Spoiled, Jealous, Fat brat who gets all she wants! Tas ako si mabait, disiplinado, Ms. Doer-Of-The-Right tas ako pa ang mapapagalitan?
Talk about Global Warming! UFO's landing on North Pole! Insects dancing by the Sun! Ughhh!
Second. You can't take me away from this. I am just a typical high school student. Its about lovelife..
May nakilala akong lalaki. Dont make me mention his name cause Im tired doing that, kay? Classmate ko siya since birth. But naging close lang kami this year.
He is my first love. And First love means? First heartbreak. The End.
Kidding. Na heartbroken ako kasi pinaasa, pinaglaruan, iniwan sa ere, and other things na kayang gawin ng isang jerk. An insensitive, ugly, jerk.
He gave sweet words. We almost became a couple. Almost, Take note of that. He played with my f'n feelings. He knows that I am inlove with him. But what did he do?
Aww.. It was so sweet!
Well, sinabi niya sa kin kung sino ang gusto niyang ligawan, he complains about his heartbreaks to me, he actually didn't care about my feelings.
He hurts me physically too.
And on the climax-slash-ending part?
I still love them. My family, my fake friends, and him. I still love them despite all of that.
Ayokong matulad kayo sa akin so wake up! Falling Inlove is like a drug. You might get addicted--like me. And the negative side effect, you will get hurt-- like me.
As long as you can, prevent yourself from falling. From being me.
Once again this is Erika but call me E.J. And thank you for listening to the story of " The Life Of Being A Good Girl "
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Based on a true story :) I'll post part two ASAP ^_^
Advices? Stories you might wanna tell? Unsolved heartbreaks? Message na lang ^_^
~BlackPrincessKIRBY <3
