Justins POV:
I jogged into the kitchen and mixed around the eggs and added a little more cheese and pepper. I put the French toast on two plates I had set out for me and Selena then I filled our cups with orange juice and just sat down waiting for her to come out. I was still confused as to what had happened and I was too worried to eat right now so I just sat down waiting for her to join me.
“Justin…” I heard her voice say from our bedroom.
I shot up quickly and walked over to her side, she was sitting down next to her suitcase, but now she was dressed.
“Selena, please tell me what’s going on.” I said grabbing her hand. I noticed she didn’t have the engagement ring on, my heart started to beat faster. Maybe she wasn’t ready to get married, maybe I should’ve talked to her about it first. I felt a knot crawl up my throat but I swallowed forcing it down.
“Justin, I love you… so so much you know that right?” She said quietly.
“Yes Selena… I know.” I choked out. I knew what she was going to tell me she wasn’t ready, the thought of getting married freaked her out.
“I-I-I… I don’t know how to start.” She cried out, tears were falling down her face like a running faucet. I knew she was crying cause she didn’t want to hurt my feelings, she just wasn’t ready. I understand.
“It’s alright babe, just say what you’ve gotta say. No matter what I’m not going anywhere as long as you still want me…” I didn’t mean to say the last part, but it just kind of came out. I’ve always been able to guess what Selena had on her mind, even though it was hard for her to express her feelings. But I needed to hear her say it.
“What? Justin… there’s nothing more I want in this world than to be with you. Forever isn’t long enough remember?” She said looking down at her bracelet that matched mine perfectly as tears fell on her jeans.
She turned to me and looked me straight in my eyes. “I don’t deserve this.” She said placing the engagement ring into my hands.
I was confused, what did she mean she didn’t deserve this? I thought I knew what was going on, but now I was completely clueless. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out. I just stared down at the ring, wondering what happened.
“Selena… I don’t understand. What are you talking about?”
She didn’t say anything and we just sat there for a minute in silence. Then she leaned forward and placed her lips against mine softly, then pushed harder. It was so passionate, but I could feel her face tensing up fighting back tears. When she pulled her face away from mine she let out a big sigh and leaned back up against our bed. She pulled her knees to her chest and hugged them tight.
“There’s something I need to tell you Justin. And after I tell you… I will understand if you don’t want to be with me anymore…” She said looking down at the ground.
“Okay Selena.” I stuttered out, what could she have to tell me. I couldn’t think of anything on this earth that would make me not want to be with her.
“It happened so long ago… I’m so sorry Justin.” She cried, I went to hold her in my arms and tell her everything’s alright but when I went to put my arm around her she pushed it away and slid further away from me.
“Just stop, don’t touch me don’t say anything just listen.” The tears hadn’t stopped pouring from her eyes, it was a constant stream. I swallowed loudly and leaned against the wall right across from her.
She didn’t speak right away so I started thinking hard on what could happen… nothing came to my mind. I tried to think about things that Selena’s done in the past that upset me enough to even think about leaving her. Then Nick came in to my mind. The day everything ended, when she ran out the door, it all started because I thought she was cheating on me with Nick. I wasn’t going to break up with her that day, but that’s the maddest I’ve ever been at her. I started to get hot flashes, did her and Nick actually do something? Or was it even Nick at all… maybe I was completely wrong. She didn’t cheat on me, or maybe she hooked up with someone while we weren’t together and she was feeling guilty… that’d hurt. But I have no right ending things with her just because she hooked up with someone when we weren’t dating. She had every right too. Just as I was pondering everything she might have done she spoke.
