"i'm sorry. please i didn't mean to hurt you. i'm so so sorry" I said as i woke up in a sweat. My body flew forward as I sat up for some water. I grabbed the glass on my bed side table and took a drink. Tears seemed to bud in my eyes as my body reclined and my head hit the pillow.
About a year ago, i fell in love with the person you could only dream about. The person that finishes your sentences and knows what you are thinking about even before you do. His name is Josh. I love him but i don't deserve him. He is perfect and i am far from it. It hurts me to know that he wants to be around me because he deserves much better. He reminds me of this too.
Sometimes he will kick me or punch me to let me know. It's not abusive. He is helping me. He wants me to be better. This is what love is. The pain is what i need. I could also use some sleep though. I keep dreaming about him and when i wake up i am in pain, a sharp pain in my stomach. Usually my stomach has bruises. i can't tell if it is because of josh or my dreams of josh but all i know is that i am in pain. Sleep is coming again. My eyes close and i fall asleep
"Time for school Tyler!" my mom shouts from the ajar door. I sit up and wince as i lift my shirt to be reminded of my bruises.
"Okay mom! I'm getting ready" i said.
I got up and closed the door then got dressed. Josh was older than me, just by a year though and went to a private school, so i didnt usually see him unless it was the weekend. I grabbed my backpack and walked towards the door.
"Bye Mom, bye Dad." I said and i closed the door. I walked across the street to the bus stop. When the bus came and i got on i noticed this girl, in the very back of the bus. She was blonde with blue eyes and she was wearing a bright yellow sweater and light skinny jeans.
I found myself walking towards her and trying to speak, "i-i waaant to kn-no-ow you. I wannt t-ta-to see-e. I-i want t-to say...".
"Im sorry, what?" she said as she pulled out an earbud that was hidden in her hair.
"Hello" i said, finishing my thought.
"Oh, um, hi! I'm Jenna, I'm new." she said.
i didn't know if i could make out another word.
"I'm Ty-yler" i responded as my cheeks went flush.
"Oh no! What happened to your arm!" she said looking at a giant nasty green-yellow bruise on my arm.
I couldn't talk about Josh. No body knows about Josh and i except Josh.
"uhhh umm BASKETBALL! yeah it happened in basketball." I said as my nerves started to eat me alive.
"Oh, that's cool. Basketball is a pretty neat sport. It was nice talking to you!" she said as she stood up and started wrapping up her head phones.
I hadn't even realized we got to the school.
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Fanfiction:.:trigger warning-contains mild violence and abusive realtionships:.: Tyler, a teenage boy in an abusive relationship with his boyfriend Josh meets a girl that will help him stay alive. |-/ JYLER OMG SO MUCH JYLER!!!
