COLD

Chapter one

Cold,dark,dead and heartless....seems to be how people would see us if they knew we existed...

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I have always had one wish in my heart should in case I am to be granted one...and that is to be normal...I want to be like the humans around us..but ever since  my "birth" its has just been nothing but a wish..
My dad says Helen did us a favor by saving our life but really I think I would have preferred to die.
I walked into the corridor of my new school trying to recall how many times I have done this since i was 19...well, I am still 19 though...but that was 3 years ago...still the same old me...sometimes it cheers me up being sarcastic about my life but its a life I have to accept.  Moving from town to town, no attachment..I have been kinda good with the later alright..being a shy and reserved person..

"Hey There.."
Startled I look up at the girl who was about to stretch out her hand in front of me..
"Hi" I said in return...
"Am pearl" she said hoping for some welcoming spirit from me..as I could read her thoughts...its easy I just do the opposite of what they would like...
"Okay" I said and walked away smiling a little as she felt so embarrassed....well I seem wicked but I got to know that the " no attachment " was actually for their good.

My mind drifted away as the history teacher bored the class with lectures I have heard before over and over before just a bit different cause its in another school and by another lecturer.....then a guy walked in..a new guy I presumed from the sound of his heart beat, he seemed pretty tensed..wait..something Strange...very strange... His thoughts are blocked...what makes this specie different...they have got to be something...I caught myself as he was beginning to stare at me in curiosity as to why I scrutinized him with my eyes from my seat...he just rolled his eyes and sighed as if to say 'weirdo and went over to his seat after the teacher's introduction.
I hurriedly packed up my stuffs into my bag as I felt the bell about to ring for close...'GRRRRRH' I stood up,rushed out and went straight to the bathroom
As I entered, I met  some girls holding a meeting by the first cubicle
'oh. I can't believe kelvin dumped Jane
'well am not surprised
' she's such a bragger'
'she deserves it'
oh what else will a bunch of normal girls discuss 'boys boys boys' who cares about boys...they are all jerks..
I strolled to the vacant cubicle and tried to avoid their eyes... I shut the door as I got in, placed my bag on the sink close by and brought Out my lunch, a jar with slightly thick red liquid and A straw and Sucked till the jar Was empty. Then douse a handful of water from the tap over my face...I sighed as I felt the muscles of my face relax as the cold effect of the water settled...and I realized I couldn't hear the whispers of the girls outside except their thoughts and I closed my eyes to focus on their minds...
"What a freak"
"what's wrong with her?"
" Did you notice her very dark eyes
I slowly clicked the door handle and noticed fear in their thoughts...I just opened the door slightly looked up at their faces for a split second and strolled out...

Another reason why the 'no attachment' thing is better For us is that when "These mortals" as our family friends call them is that when they get to know the persons we truly are they get frightened and leave...leave us broken without any option than to accept our fate...well I don't blame them..who wouldn't? Especially as TV shows seem to be doing a great job at portraying our kinds...well the truth is there are good ones and they are bad ones just like in every race..and I have n't changed much since I was transformed..the change is just Physical, the super strength, heightened senses,magnified pain, bleeding like hemophiliacs...and highly flammable skin..and maybe what we eat... But deep,really deep down in my heart am still. The same old Amber Collins, friendly, shy, and nice... But the mortals never seem to get pass the physical...and I ain't ready to put my heart on the line.....at least not yet.

Though having a friend would have been lovely, as it does get lonely sometimes.
"Hi freak"
a girl called out from behind me as I opened my locker....although I knew she was coming but it was super annoying to hear her call me a freak out loud....my eyes flashed with anger and I managed to curtail it before turning back.
"Hey" I said looking straight to her eyes...
"O yea see who got some wings" she said As she giggled in an annoyingly girlish manner....
"Just wanna let you know that my toes should not be step on, or I'll make you regret u were ever, ever born.  Capish?"
I smiled and just walked away from her.....she gasped and bit her lip and I could read in her mind she wished she could kill me with her bare hands....my smile grew wider as I proceeded to the practical class
During the class every thing seemed fuzzy...- had this depressing feeling that I didn't fit in no matter how much things  I try I try to hide about myself. And. It hurt watching girls laughing together or couples. Holding hands...and. I wonder if that kind of life will ever be mine.
"You Waiting for a bus?" The girl from morning asked as she joined Me as I walked towards the school gate...
'Yep'
I said suprised she could still talk to me after how I treated her,
''mm I saw Alicia talking to you earlier, don't mind her, she is just a bully '
I took a glance at the beautiful,warm girl walking beside me with full blond hair...and when she caught my gaze I smiled weakly but she gave me a very bright smile that lighted a Glow inside of me... A warning bell rang in my head...reminding me of the 'no attachment rule' I looked away quickly
"am sorry I have to go now, am in a hurry"
I said as I took the next turn not waiting for her reply and tried to walk as fast as I could but humanly cause I knew she still stared
"okay..see you tomorrow then" she waved slightly and moved on.