The Joys Of Parents

As sick as it sounds the only thing I've ever wanted to change in my life is my mom and dad. They were abusive emotionally and sometimes physically. If I could go back I'd make sure my dad had a job. I'd put my mother on medication for her bipolar disorder that was wonderfully passed down to me. In hopes that she would be more stable. I'd change how they used to yell, scream, and cuss at me because they didn't actually want kids. Instead they would tell me that they loved me everyday and that they don't blame me for ruining their lives. Yeah, not an I love you until I turned 13 and it didn't last long. Maybe I could've had the parents that took me to school everyday instead of letting me miss 32 days because they didn't feel like getting out of bed. I'd change how the divorce went. Though if they were this perfect I'm not sure it would've happened. My dad would've really wanted me and not just the money. My mom wouldn't have signed over her guardianship to my grandparents. The last thing I'd change about my parents is them being parents at all. They weren't stable, loving, caring. I may have been born to them, but they were never really my mom and dad. There's a difference between dieing and never being born anyway. Sometimes I wish I was never born.