i wake up with so much anger built up inside of me for some reason then i realized why i havent cutted in 3 weeks knowing that it makes the urge grow i try to keep my mind off of it as nobody knows i cut not even luke or mel or tyler i bit my lip to distract my self then i cant take it anymore i run up to the bathrooom and lock the door and get out my blades i len ageince the door with a towle under my wrist so blood dosent drop on the floor i put the blade on my wrist and close my eyes and push it into my skin and slice and i do it 3 more times then i clean the blade and put it back and then i push on my wrist untill it stoops bleeding i then put i jumper on and its really hot today so i dont now what im gonna do i walk down stairs and get a drink like i always do i then plug my earphone into my phone and put one in my ear and put the chord down my top and put a song on
"JESS ARE YOU READY FOR SCHOOL?" i hear beau yell shit we have school today?
"do we have school today?" i say
"yes its monday"
"oh okay hold on then"
i walk back up to my room and get into my school uniform and i put my black jumper over it then i walk back down stairs
"why are you whereing a jumper? its way to hot for that"'
"i just feel like wearing one"
i walk out the door and i see mel walking i run up to her
"hey!" i say
"yo"
"can we please ditch school today i really dont want to go to school we can catch a train somewhere?" i say
"haha yeah sure"
we walk to the train station and wait for the train
"so what did you do on the weekend?" mel asked
"well i ran away haha but they found me last night so it was not succsesful "
"oh well next time you run away come to mine "
"oky!!"
are train comes and we get on and sit down after a few stops beau gets on the train?!?!?!"
"why is your step bro on the train?"
"idk he dosent go to school shit he cant see me on this train "
"why?"
"cause this train dose not go to school and he will know im ditching"
"dont worryjust dont look at him or h will notic you"
"okay"
"whos hes mate?" mel says
"i ont know but hes hot!" i say
"haha you have a boyfriend dont say that "
"hey i have a boyfriend but it dosent mean i cnt think peopple re hot!"
"hey remeber that song? mel says
"witch one? theres so many songs"
she starts singing
"lets talk about sex baby-"
then i sing with her
"lets talk about you and me
lets talk about all the good things
and the bad things that may be
letssss talkkkk abouuut sexxxxx"
"ahaha omg i rember that song "
" hold on"
i take my jumper off and then i tak my school shirt off because i have a cinglet on under it i out it in my bag and then put my jumper bak on i then get my phon out and me and mel tke some selfies i ut them on facebook with the statuse "no school for us today <3"
then i there is a comment on the pic and beau comented on it?! shithe said "look next to you "
i show mel hes comment and she laughs i dont look next to me i omment bak "no'
he comments on it saying"fin i will come sit with you then"
i coment "finee" i show mel the comments and we both move are bags off o the seats across from us so they can sit there and we laugh and go on are phones i put both my ear phones in so i cant hear them and mel does the same then we start texting echother
then someone pulls my eraarphones out "hey that was my fav song"
"why arnt you two t school?" he says
i pull mels earphones out
"cause we dont want to go! duh"
"but you sill have to go"
"no i dont" me and mel laugh
"i look at beaus friend and hes smiling at me i smile back and bit my lipthen i look at beau again
"whos your mate?" i say
"oh this is James" ( not James in the band guys just another guy call James)
"oh hey"
then my phone rings arghh
i answer it
"hello?"
"where are you why arnt you at school?" its luke
"why do you care?"
"cause your my sister and i do "
"im not your sister there is a big diffrence between step and real"
" whatever just hurry up and get to school"
"whats it to you?"
then i hear him pass the phone to someone
"hey" its jai
"hey!"
"why arnt you at school?" h says cailmly"
"cause i really didnt feel like going its just for today please no drama? i need a break from school and im with beau anyway but not for long"
"okay just be careful and why are you being so rude to luke?"
"cause he still hasent said sorry yet so yeah anyway i gota go see you when you get back from school"
i hang up
"well jais all cool with it just for today anyway this is are stop so yeah ....."
me and mel run off the train as fast as we can
me and mel just laugh "do you want to"
The day goes by and mel goes home
i walk away untill i see someone sitting on a chair i diceid to sit next to her i see she is reading on her phone then i look at her staright in the eye she looks at me with a weird look like who the hell are you and why are you looking At me weirdly?
"hi" i say
"hi" sshe says back
" my name is jess"
"hi my name is tegiboo"
"you call yourself tegiboo?"
"yea"
"thats cool then i will just call myself jessiboo"
"okay hi jessiboo"
"hi tegiboo"
so whats your last name ?" i say
" smith she says "
"really same here but im living with my step mum"
"im adopted"
"i had a sister well a twin and she got given to adoption her name is tegan i only knew her for 2 years"
"omg same here"
"wait you must be my long lost twin sister tegan"
" i must be"
"omg" we both say at the same time
