Almost Feels Like Always (COMPLETED)

HUDSON (SIXTEEN)

I ALMOST fell off my seat when I saw Autumn's recent selfie that she posted on Instagram. Damn! She's so bomb. Her face was carefully and beautifully made-up like one of those Instagram baddies. She had real talent.

Naked face or glam up, I love her both ways. Her off-shoulder top bared her collarbone and yummy shoulders. I wanna see her in person right now but I can't because I'm having dinner with my family. I left a comment on her picture.

hudsonvee damn baby u fine😍🔥👅 #swoon #drool how to be mine po?

She immediately responded to my flirty comment.

_fallcabral like the girl isn't yours 😏 @hudsonvee

Dammit! Kinikilig ako! Hindi ko na pinatulan isa-isa ang mga punyetang abangers sa comments.

hudsonvee see that fuckers? All miiiiiine. She's all mine
_fallcabral @hudsonvee no competition here. Always yours.❤️
dimplesbabe comments😭😍 Ugh!
miles38 omg their comments😭 i caaaaan't😭
applepied GOAAAAAALS💓

Naiiling na napangiti ako. God. We've been dating for nearly nine months now and the ecstasy I get whenever I see her before was still there. It still makes me high. She makes me high. Nangangati na akong matapos ang dinner na 'to. I can't wait to go and see her. I just saw her this morning but I missed her like hell already.

"Bakit hindi mo na lang kasi sinama si Autumn?" Nangingiting tanong ni Kuya Gibbs na napansing hindi na ako mapakali.

Sumubo ako ng baked salmon. "May dinner din sila ng family niya. It's Austin's birthday."

"You two are so in love with each other." Mom said in a serious tone. I know that tone very well. That's the tone she used when she's about to drop a life lesson.

"Mom, they're young. Young people are intense because they have all the energy." Kuya Gibbs came to the rescue.

"I'm just saying." Mom shrugged. "Too much is never healthy."

I just rolled my eyes. "Ako na naman ang nakita mo, Mommy. Mas inlove nga 'yang si Kuya."

"H, your Kuya is old enough and is getting married. You, on the other hand, still have your whole life ahead of you."

I put down my knife and fork. Pinunasan ko ng table napkin ang magkabilang sulok ng labi ko. "And I'm too young to be too inlove? That's what you're saying?"

She caressed my shoulder. "Anak, all I'm saying is, you should slow down. Huwag kayong mag-madali. Don't pour too much. Magtira kayo para sa sarili niyo. Love can—"

"Honey, let your son be." Putol ni Dad kay Mom. "If that love can ruin him then, let him. Let him learn from his own mistakes."

This conversation is not new to me. Maraming beses ko ng narinig 'to. Hindi lang kay Mom. Pati rin kay Lolo at sa mga pinsan ko. I can't see anything wrong with being this inlove and giving your all. Ganoon naman sa love, 'di ba? Alam kong newbie ako dito but I'm not dumb to not know those things.

Gusto ko lang naman iparamdam at ipakita kay Autumn kung gaano ko siya kamahal. Ibibigay ko sa kanya kung anong kaya kong ibigay at higit pa. Kung hindi pa sapat, sosobrahan ko pa. Ayaw kong magsisi. Ayaw kong magkulang. Ayaw kong dumating 'yung time na kailangan ko siyang tanungin kung saan ako nagkulang. I want to give her all the certainty and assurance.

I just want to make everything worth while.

I want to make the most out of it.

Masama ba 'yun?