Puppeteer - LeoN/ Neo

Chapter 9

„Good morning sleeping beauty." Did I ever mention that I loved it whenever my master woke me up? I lived with him up here for a while now and he never woke me in a heartless way. He always made sure to be as lovely as he could. I knew he loved me. I could feel and see it in his eyes. Who needs words, when his eyes can tell you even more than his mouth ever could.

"It's time to stand up and work my cute one." I nodded and rubbed my eyes. Master and I worked together the last days. I dressed up in different clothing and he took photos of me.

Today was another day of dressing up. But this time.. crossdressing.

"Please make yourself ready and then come to me okay?" Again this cute dress. I really loved it and hummed as I got in.

I know that no one will understand these senseless thoughts of mine.

I know that everyone judges me for the feelings I have and for him. Everyone who's reading this. Everyone of you. I want you to go deep inside. Have you ever been bullied? Have you ever been raped again. And again because hey, you're dark skinned and you don't have any rights to be treat like the fucking human you are! Have you? No? Well then don't even try to judge me. I'm different. Maybe. But I deserve to be loved. I deserve to be happy just like we all deserve to live.

I tapped his shoulder. "Master I'm dooone ^^" I said and smiled at him. "Wooow... my beauty! No girl can be prettier than you. I'm so happy that I finally found you. Took me long enough.." He checked if I was okay and then he kissed my nose and started to take photos of me.

Never in my life I could describe what I feel for him now. Back then when I first met him... Well... as I first saw his face, as I first heard him speak... Everything he did, every move he made scared me. His perfect looks scared me to death. Because everything that people with such a perfect face ever did was hurt me. At first I thought that I was going to die. But instead of dying, I got insane. Every small compliment he made found his way into my heart and into head. Because what does happen if you compliment someone that was never complimented before? Not even his parents ever said something good about this person... People like this have a strong will but... they can be weak for one thing in the world. Love. Love can turn a brave heart into a soft and weak one. The strongest person can get the weakest. Honestly I don't know if I show him enough. I want him to know what I feel. I want him to look into my eyes and realize that he is the only person that I need. The only thing I need but the one thing I can't live without. The fear turned into love and this love has grown stronger than anyone would ever see. Everyone would call me insane for loving the one that physically hurt me so much. But do you know the pain in your heart when someone you admire hates you? I'd rather get tortured in the hardest, most painful way till the end of my life than being hated by Leo. Yes I don't know his real name. Yes I don't know if he would love me without all those puppet scars. But I couldn't care less. Can't you see that I'm happy now? Can't you see that one time in my life I'm sure about who I am. About the things I feel and about the fact that I don't ever want to die if he keeps me forever.

Whenever I laid in his arms in his bed just like I did this evening and all the nights before, I knew that this is where I belong. And this is where I want to stay forever.

"I love you Hakyeon."