18 (An Andy Biersack fanfic) *ON HIATUS*

Chapter Nine

A/N: Sorry I'm so bad at updating, guys! I'll try to do better!

A couple days have past, but Madeline never got out of her bed. She refused to go to the auditorium to eat and even converse with Dylan and Alex. She didn't want to see them. She didn't want to see anyone. All she wanted to do was curl up in a ball and disappear.

The worst part is, no one came to see her. At least, not the person she wanted to.

Her heart hurt more than it has ever before. She truly thought Andy did have an interest in her. She thought that something was special between them, but after hearing the story of Andy and Darcy, Madeline now questioned everything she knew about Andy. Was everything he showed her of himself just a front?

How could you?

A few more hours passed, and Madeline was still in the same position as she was from the night before.

Why am I feeling this way?

She asked herself.

Because you love him. No, no, no, I can't love him...

Madeline continued to fight with her subconscious thoughts. Before she could decide whether or not she truly did love Andy, the door to her room opened slowly.

"Hey..." Andy smiled sadly and walked in the room. He stayed a few feet away from her as if to tell her he wasn't going to attack her.

This was no reassurance to Madeline. Sure, she had liked someone before, but she had never fallen in love, and if this is what it felt like, she didn't want any part of it.

She ignored Andy, her face still buried in her pillow.

"Madeline, please, I'm sorry for what happened. You have to know, though, that Darcy made up in her mind that what the two of us had was a relationship more than what it actually was."

Madeline finally turned her head, her eyes were red and her throat raspy as she talked, looking at him with anger.

"I thought WE had something, Andy. You asked me to move in your room with you! Why? Am I being stupid and naive as well?!" Madeline sat up, rubbing her eyes. She couldn't cry now. Not with him around to see it. She didn't want to be under his mercy or have him think she was weak.

"No, Mads, no... You're neither of those things... I asked you to move into my room with me because, well... I do feel something for you." Andy walked a little closer to her, his eyes pleading.

"Oh, yeah, but so does Jay. He DEFINITELY feels something for me too..." She huffed.

Andy's facial expression hardened as he stiffly stood there.

"Do NOT compare me to that sorry-excuse-of-a-human. I am NOTHING like him. I do not lust after you for my own personal benefits, Madeline. You should know this. Otherwise I would've done something already. Do you really believe that I wouldn't have? If I wanted to do anything, I could've persuaded you into doing it by now, but I didn't because I'm not a bad person."

Madeline's eyes widened a bit, slightly caught off guard by his change of attitude. He did have a point. If he truly wanted to use Madeline in that way, he could've easily done it already. He was arguably the most powerful C.O., so what would stop him?

All she could do was nod and turn way from him. She felt ashamed that she even thought for a second that Andy would use her.

"I'm sorry..."

"You should be. I'm nothing like my former coworker, and I never will be." Andy sighed and rubbed his temples.

Madeline looked back at Andy.