Behind this Mask

Chapter 2 // sunrise

{Slightly edited}

I couldn't sleep all night, it wasn't that I was nervous I just didn't have my medication. Stella said she'd have Paulo pick up my prescription "later". Although i'm not sure how "late" later would be. I couldn't help but think of Donny, he lived in Italy last I heard I just wasn't sure where though, the last time I saw him was before the...... incident. I checked the clock in hopes it was time to get ready and to my luck it wasn't, it was only 4 and school here didn't start till 7:30 so I had some time. I decided to get up and go for a run since I wasn't getting any sleep, i got up grabbed a pair of black leggings and a matching sports bra along with a white cropped sweatshirt that had a 1in black see-through strip on the sleeves that went from the shoulder to the wrist, lastly I grabbed a pair of socks and my black Nike running shoes and went into the bathroom to do my morning routine finally giving me a chance to look at myself, I had long black hair that went below my ass, I had "plump" pink lips, i rarely used any make up because i had "flawless skin"; I was golden tan, 5'7 I had curves in all the "right" places, I had decent sized boobs, an ass; my eyes were unique they were light brown with a blue ring around the edge, I was your "perfect girl" and i hated all of it especially my eyes nothing good came of my looks i always looked older than what I was I had an early growth spurt and by the age 13 i was a full grown "woman" if only I'd been a late bloomer everything could have been avoided, I could've been home but then again nothing was gunna stop Emiliano from getting his way. He never cared, not about my mother and definitely not about me. With one last glance at the mirror i quickly washed my face, brushed my teeth, put my hair in a high ponytail and got dressed. Right before I walked out i put on my brown contacts, they hid my real eye color. Once I was done I walked out of my bathroom grabbed my headphones and my iPod walking out to the hall way, I wasn't sure if anyone was awake and I wasn't sure how they'd react. I slowly crept down the hallway to the stair case careful to not make any noise before I walked down stairs to get to the kitchen and grab a water bottle. To my surprise Paulo was awake sitting at the bar enjoying a cup of coffee while reading the paper, his back was to me and he didn't hear me come in so I walked over to the pantry to grab a bottle and try to leave before he asked questions I was near the door when he spoke "where are you going?" I turned around to see him and when I did see him he was no longer sitting with his back to me he was now standing and looking at me. I cleared my throat before speaking "for a run" he was silent not giving anything up before asking "do you want me to accompany you? I know you aren't exactly familiar with the neighborhood i don't want you getting lost on your first day here." I shook my head softly before replying " I'll be fine" He didn't say anything for a moment before he reluctantly agreed. With that I turned and headed for the front door. It was still dark out but the air was fresh, I walked out onto the street before putting on my head phones and checking the time, it was 4:30 I had to be back by 6. I took off starting slowly but after a while I picked up speed and just ran, the houses were equally as big and amazing as Stella's. It wasn't my home and it never would be, I ran for a while, admiring the homes and they're yards. I passed a couple intersections but continued to run, I lost track of time and saw that the sun was being to rise i checked my iPod and saw that I'd been running for almost an hour and had to get back so I turned and ran back the way I came. The streets were quiet all that could be heard through the streets were my steps. I watched as homes began to come alive, people getting ready for work or school. My mind started to wander thinking about the past, about what my life once was, eventually I came to and focused on getting to the house. The run back seemed longer than when I had left . I stoped just outside the fence of the house to look at the sun, I always wondered what astronauts experienced, i wondered if their breath got caught in their throats the way it does for me, or if they had seen it so much that it became a regular thing like waking up, something many people took for granted. I don't think I could ever see enough sunsets, they reminded me that today was a new day and I had survived another day. With one last look i turned at went into the house preparing myself for the day to come.

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• p.s the attached photo is a picture of her eyes 👀 •