How Does It Feel? (EVANSTAN)

Chapter 5

Okay, just assume every chapter is gunna be bad, sorry kiddies. Read the mature warnings ;)

Soft breathing.

I opened my eyes, expecting Rob to be next to me, but I found Sebastian. It took me a minute to get my brain going and I went full on lockdown.

"Sebastian!" I yelled, the sudden noise causing him to yelp and fall off the couch, a loud thump echoing off the brick walls.

"What?! Who died?!" He said, half yelling, sleep still in his voice. He was in his boxers, his toned chest making a blush crawl up my neck.

I soon realized the upper half if my body was also revealed, my maturity kicking in, I brought the blanket up to my neck.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I said, shock covering up my face. Once I looked into those baby blue eyes, everything came back to me.

The drinking. The... sex. Oh God, the sex! Just thinking about last night had me going.

I lazily flopped back down on the couch pillows and groaned loudly, covering my face with my hands.

I felt Sebastian crawl back onto the couch, hovering over my body and leaving small kisses from my stomach to my neck. I peeked through my fingers to watch this happen, arousal hitting me like a fucking truck.

Without warning Sebastian flopped down right on top of me, all his weight pushing me down. He giggled and rested his chin on my chest, looking up at me. He smiled that gorgeous smile and ran his hands up my arms mindlessly, staring into my eyes.

Before I could say anything, he moved up and pressed his lips to mine. I moaned at the sudden action, moving my hands to his hair. The urge for air was all too much, so I broke the kiss, only to have Sebastian attack my neck.

He slowly moved down my upper body, starting at my collar bone. He used everything he had, his hands, tongue, lips, everything.

He moved lower, teasing by tugging my boxers centimeter by centimeter with his teeth. I groaned when he finally pulled them off.

Sebastian didn't hesitate to touch me, which made me throw my head back and mouth open, audible moans leaving my lips. I looked down to see him grinning at the sight of me vulnerable in his hands.

He started jacking me off, right there! On my fucking couch! Moans filled my apartment living room as he sped up, a few groans leaving him as well.

When I finally got off, he cleaned up the mess. With his mouth. Oh God, I fucking swear he's gunna kill me. He licked his way up my chest and kissed me, my taste on his lips. He smiled in the kiss and gets off the couch, walking towards my kitchen.

I sat there for a minute, staring at a wall and then finally sat up, pulling my boxers all the way up. Sebastian was sitting at my small Table For Two, staring into a cup full of caramel coffee. When I walked into the kitchen he snapped out of his gaze, looking up at me with a fake smile. I sat down across from him and frowned, looking into my hands.

"Are... are you okay?" I asked quietly, not wanting this fantasy to end too soon. He looked into my blue eyes and clenched his jaw.

"I-I don't know, Chris," he said, his beautiful eyes pleading for me to understand. I nodded and walked out of the kitchen, heading to my room. I felt Sebastian's eyes burning into my back the whole way, regret sizzling my skin.

Once I closed my door, I slid down it, small, quiet sobs leaving my lips. After about three minutes, I composed myself and wiped my tears, grabbing some clothes off the floor. I opened the door and headed to the kitchen, only to find Sebastian gone. There was a note on the counter along with his coffee mug.

Chris,

I know this is really, really weird but I don't... I don't know what to do. I've known you for years and we've never faltered. The reason I came over that night was to do something I know I'd regret. God, I'm such an asshole. I don't even know what I am. I regret everything. I'm sorry, I can't go on like this....

~Sebastian.

I. Am. So. Sorry.

~panpan