Hi, I'm Jess

Pain

Hi, I'm Jess. I'm a 16 year old girl. I have big green eyes and long maroon hair that goes to the top of my butt. Since I am emo/goth I wear black. My parents are dead so I hate life, and school... But I will live through it like I always do. Let's just say I'm not a popular person in my school. I am goth/emo or whatever, so yeah, I'm not really liked. But I'm ok with that. No friends or anything. So I'm a very positive person *sarcasm*. I like one person tho, but everyone else I hate more than words can tell. His name is Conner. He is tall with jet black hair, his eyes are a icey blue. He always wears cowboy pants and cowboy boots. but he doesn't notice me, so I thought. And I let him live without the burden of me. After feeling depressed for 3.2 seconds, I get into the shower and the water washes away all my pain and fear. After I get out, I blow dry my, butt length maroon colored, and puts my hair into a long, ponytail. I then turn towards the mirror and put on my black makeup. I was wearing all black clothing, tight skinny jeans, a loose T-shirt and my black leather jacket. I walk into my room and take a deep breath.

I walk over to my all black bed and grabs my phone and book bag before going downstairs. I sigh then walk out of the house and drive to school. I get to the school and locks my truck doors then I walk to the school bench and sits down. A group of girls walk up to me. "Hi, what's your name again?" They giggle and start to bully and tease me. "Will you just leave me alone girls. Please I'm not in the mood to deal with your guys crap right now." They notice that I glance at Conner.

"You do realize that he will never like or notice you." They laugh and walk away.
"I already realize that." I mumble to myself. I walk into the school with everyone else with my head down. I head to my first class with a sigh. I sit down in a seat and can feel Conner's eyes on my back. I want to look back and look at him but if I do than I feel that they are laughing at me or making fun of me... So I don't look back... I keep looking down at my desk, not wanting to be bothered by the girls from earlier.

I then hear Conner's voice behind me talking to his friends.
"I'm going to go talk to her." His friends all look at him quizzically. One says,
"why would you want to go that? She's a stupid dumb girl who has never had a boyfriend." He doesn't listen to them and walks over to me.
"Hey are you ok?" He says as he sits down beside me.
"I'm fine." I say hesitantly. "Umm, but your friends are right why are you talking to me? I mean no one else does besides to make fun of me or tease me..." He sighs.
"Well I don't want to tease or make fun of you." He smiles. We talk for the rest of the hour. I stay quiet mostly but Conner doesn't mind at all. The bell rings for school to end and I walk to my locker.

I notice that Conner watches me the whole time I walk to my Locker. I grab my stuff out of my locker and put them into my backpack then walks out of the school to my truck. I unlock the doors and get into the truck, it starts and goes to leave, but Conner opens my drivers door.
"Conner you startled me..."
"Sorry I didn't mean to." He smiled as I get out of the truck.
"Whats up Conner? Do you need something?"
"No I don't need anything." He grins.
"Ok sure..." I smile. We talk for a few minutes, making awkward small talk about the weather.
"So... Hey, You wanna come to my place for dinner?" My heart does a hiccup. What would I say?
I try holding back a smile and nod, "sure I would like to come over for dinner."
He smiles, "great so I'll pick you up at 7?"
"Yeah sure..." We then part ways and I go home, I smile as I walk into my house and goes upstairs.
I get ready and Conner rings my doorbell. I walk down the stairs and open the door.
" Hey girl, you ready?" He grins.
"Yeah I am. Let's go" I smile and leaves my house. I get into his truck and we go to his house.
"So why did you ask me to go to dinner at your house?" I ask without looking at him, playing with the sleeve of my jacket...

"Because I like you and you seem like you don't have many friends and I just thought you would like a friend." I think he only wants to be friends. I think to myself. I sigh and nods. "I understand now... You can take me home not to your house..."
"What why? I thought you wanted to have dinner at my place..."
"Yeah that was before you said you wanted to be friends. I thought you liked me more than a friend so I said yes to having dinner. But you only like me as a friend and I understand now that I will never be liked..." He pulls over and looks at me.