Maybe it's Clalec instead

Maybe It Won't Be So Bad

We turned away and began to walk over the hill when a ball of light began to form around my chest, feeling like my whole body was on fire. I let out a gasp in pain causing the angel to glance at me, "Clarissa it has been nice and now you know how much you mean to them, maybe next time, hopefully not for a while though." The angel almost smiled and pushed me off the hill into what felt like an abyss.
I was free falling, no end, nothing below me other than blackness, that is until I fell with a painful thud, only to feel more pain, if that was possible. My stomach felt as though it were ripped apart. Was I in hell? Black dots danced around my eyes as I more pain laced body like a fire. "Arg" I let out the pain noise. Another scream ripped through lips unintentionally and my lungs filled painfully with air.

"Oh by the Angel, Magnus it worked! Close the other wounds!" Jocelyn cried out, she cracked a small smile.
"Clare bear" Simon whispered excitedly.
"Clary" Alec whispered. His voice was enough to motivate me to open my eyes despite the anticipation of the pain of the light. "Hey there" he whispered, his eyes unusually puffy and red. His nose scrunched as he sniffled a bit. Despite the pain, it was quiet possibly the cutest thing ever. All of what they said while I was dead or dying comes rushing back at a rapid rate, causing blackness to swirl around me. Not again.

[Time lapse one day]

My entire body aches. Literally I feel every inch of body aching. Especially my rib area. Cautiously I open my eyes and after a , minute I see dark disheveled hair with one strand covering an eye as he snored quietly. I would have brushed the hair away but I feel if I moved, my arm may break off. Looking to my other side I see all the others including a sleeping Max. I smile lightly until Izzy wakes up and shrieks, "You're awake!!"  Causing a huge pain in my head, " A little quieter Iz" I croak out.
"Sorry!"she whispers, her eyes brimming with happiness.
"And to answer your question, yes I would to love be your parabatai." I say with a smile knowing how happy she'll be.
" Oh my god you heard? Never mind how, can you imagine our matching dresses and huge ceremony!" The sight of Izzy happy and blabbering about fashion makes me laugh to myself a little. She starts waking up the others.
" Clary?" Alec asks. He looks exhausted. A small frown oh his face that I would honestly love to kiss off his face. Oh dear. I just thought that.
"Er no you didn't Clary, you said that out loud." He chuckles. Sweet and low.
"Are you kidding me?"  Shaking his head, he leans in a small smirk on his lips as his lips land on mine, sweet, warm, and electric, and everything I've been longing for. Sadly he pulls away as the others are fully awake now. I see a smug smile on his face, matching mine. So perfect.

"Clary!" Joyous voices say in unison.
"Mom" I look to first
"Oh baby"
"I'm okay mom, really"
"It's just you died, I was so scared." Luke then cut in, happy, " What happened though?"
Asking the question no one thought to ask.
"I went out side to get some air when I saw Valentine and Hodge holding a sword threatening Max," I look to Max and he smiles at me before I continue, " They were going to kill him so I made a deal with them, the could do whatever they wanted to do with me as long as they let Max go. Then they both came at me with swords and so did that dumb bird which I think is the one responsible for the hole in my rib cage. All of a sudden though they fled and I walked into the institute. I don't think they wanted to take that far so they ran.
" Wait with a gaping hole, you walked?" Simon asked shocked.
"Well duh it's just a hole" I say with a laugh and they laugh too.
" Hey" Jace says suddenly. And it's okay because I think we both kind of just fell out of love with each other and I'm ready to have a relationship with him as friends
"Hey" I say back, reassuring him that we are friends. For now it's all okay.
"Alright this is a all very touching darling but I think it's time we actually find what food and water are again and you get some rest. I'm glad you're alive Clary." Magnus interjects planting a kiss on my forehead. I am tired.
" I think that's a really good idea." I agree.
" Whoa Clary Fairchild actually listening to orders." Alec says sarcastically, but plants a kiss on my lips, just enough to reenergize me, longing for more.
"Bye Alec" I whisper in his ear, despite everything, two can play at this game. As he breaks away, he trails a finger down my arms sending good chills down my body.
" You win this time Lightwood"  I add as he smirks over his shoulder. God that smirk of his is killing me. That smile if his, the way his eyes darken, drawing me in, the sides of his mouth, that little half smile- smirk combo. Without thinking I bit my lip, the residual tingling from our first kiss still fresh on my lips. I try and memorize that perfect smirk, falling in love with it, well with him . I make a mental note to draw it  and definitely kiss it off his face. Boy do I like games.