When I went to my first school in 4th grade, I was VERY nervous and afraid people wouldn't like me. Until I saw him. He was the funniest, most handsome person my young eyes had ever laid sight on. He was always surrounded by friends and they were always laughing. After a few weeks in my new school, I made some friends. They were all really nice to me, so I told them that I liked him. They all flipped out and were SUPER happy for me. They wanted to tell him, but I said no, because I was really shy at the time. I wanted to tell him that I loved him, but i didn't have the strength.
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There was this one kid who always teased me, and he called me dumb, ugly, etc. He was always rude to me, but I only told my closest friends. Fourth grade soon faded into 5th grade, and I was happy the rude kid was in another class. BUT, this other kid I had to sit by was just annoying, not really rude, but still, I hated him. One time he called me a rude name, and my friend slapped him with a ruler, so Keon came up and said: "What did you call her?" He replied: "I called her nothing, geez" Then Keon goes: "So you called her a nothing? That's even worse!" I swear, that was the best moment of my pathetic 5th grade life.
I think it was that year, my family had to move. We moved 15 hours away from where my love, the only way I could feel true happiness, was. I think I cried myself to sleep the weeks leading up to when we were moving. I was going to miss all my friends, and my dad, but most of all, Keon. I knew, that one day, I would see him again. That soon became my #1 life goal.
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2 years later, my mom FINALLY let me get Snapchat. I was so happy, and I starting adding all my friends. My sister added her friend on hers, and she said she was dating, you guessed it, KEON. I was like: "Ummmmm... Okay I can't really see them together, but I guess he can do what he wants." My sister said she couldn't see them together either. I decided to add Keon on Snapchat, without telling my sister, because if she knew, she would endlessly tease me about that I still liked him, and I would endlessly deny it. I started to talk to him, but it was really awkward since we hadn't seen each other for like 2 years, and he was dating someone else, so we didn't have much to talk about.
I soon gathered enough courage to send him a pic of me, and he replied back: "Hi" and stuff, we talked for a while, and I sent him some more pics. He finally says after a while: "Don't tell anyone I said this, but you are beautiful" I think that I died inside, because that meant that he might like me, even though I never told him that I liked him :) After that, I think I had to go eat or something, because I had to go after that.
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We talked for a few more weeks after that, and he soon said that he broke up with the girl he was dating. I asked him why and he said: "Idk I just felt like it wasn't working" "Uh-huh" I said, not really paying attention. We kept talking, and he soon starting about love and all that, and he said: "Paige, I still love you" or something like that. I THINK THAT I DIED JUST THEN. We kept talking and after a few weeks, my sister apparently did something she wasn't supposed to on the computer, so my mom said that it was her fault and she had 'exposed us to a world that we weren't ready for' she made me delete Snapchat and my sister delete Facebook. I said goodbye to Jordan*,
And then he was gone...
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For the next week, I cried myself to sleep and thought about all the things I could have said, done, and I didn't.
He said he would always love me.
I believe him.
*Not his real name, but I want to respect his privacy.
