Big Mistake

The Whole Story

Well here it is a big failure story. So most everything started last school year. I'm sorry where are my manners? Hello reader I'm Preston Harris and this is my story of falling in love and screwing up. So back to where I was. I am and was a person who likes to make others happy. I was living a pretty normal life and then lies started being told. And well I saw that people were making jokes having a good time and at the time they all knew they were jokes. Slowly over time people started forgetting they were jokes and it kinda became a reality that was created for me. I never meant for this to happen. I was just trying to keep people happy and smiling because to me that's important. Some of the things joked about were that oh he is really good at soccer he must be English and truthfully I am but I'm not fully English. I have some German, some Cherokee Indian, some Slovakian, some Irish, and some Polish. All of these heritages can add up to make an impressive soccer player. In this lie I became an English soccer player because to others it made sense because I was and am a great player. (Humble I know. I m keeping this as true as possible.) So from being a great soccer player I was signing up for scholarships and such. In this I was invited to camps and things. One day I got a message saying you are invited to this camp where only the top in the nation get to participate. So I looked into it and it turns out that only 60 people get invited to it and I was feeling pretty special and honored. So I told a few people and they started saying that I am like the 13th best in the USA and well it made me feel accomplished and it made the teammates I played with feel accomplished. So I said sure why not. And slowly it became a small lie that I was ranked 13th in the nation and people who have watched me play still say yeah he could be but we will never know for sure. So why am I telling you all of this on a public work place and reading place? Well this is meant one to be a story of why I did what I did and two a story to teach other people what to do  if they get into this situation. At this point you may also be wondering wait he mentioned love earlier and so far has not said anything about it well here you go. So a little later in the school year I met an amazing girl who name change is named Mindy Reynolds. As soon as I saw her I wanted to friend her. So i went about befriending her. I told her every thing about me and I also made the mistake of telling her of all the lies I have been living. To her they weren't lies they were my life and to me I had forgotten they were not my life. And I told Mindy things I would never tell anyone else because anyone else would have stopped talking to me. Over the course of the months Mindy and I fell into a mutual liking some would argue we were dating but had never asked. Originally I had planned to tell her but I could never figure out how to say I'm sorry without losing her. I had thought on it for ever and the more and more I started liking this girl the harder and harder it became. (Yes you probably inserted a stupid joke here.) I didn't want to hurt this girl. Everything was getting out of hand. I had told her about my twin dying and my brothers twin dying even though those started out as jokes. I never had the courage to tell anyone they were wrong. The lies made people happy and I didn't want to say something like hey that's not actually true and not funny. I was and am fearful of it still. Mindy unfortunately found out I was lying but not from me not in the way I wanted her to find out. With the way she found out I knew immediately I will never be forgiven and this will never be forgotten and honestly it's killing me because I know I am the only one to blame for everything that happened. It keeps me up and night and has for awhile even before she found out. After she  found out I knew I had to try and make things right even though they never will be again and she will probably hate me forever and never want to see me again. So the next day I pulled aside during lunch and explained myself. Honestly that's the hardest thing I think I have ever done. As I was explaining I could tell I was deeply upsetting her in ways that are unforgivable. She may say everything alright and that she forgives me but I am smart I know better. She is still upset and will be and that's my fault. So please learn from my mistake. I may not know who you are and or what you're going through but just be honest nothing good comes from lying. I had forgotten this teaching. With forgetting I ruined what could of been an amazing thing. So if you are lying in some way fix it before it's too late. It may already be too late but if the person truly loves you they will forgive you and come back it will just take time in that time period keep yourself happy no matter what.  Seek advice if you need it. If Mindy ever finds this I want her to know yes I wrote this down to try and help you see I'm truly sorry and because at one time you told me I could be a great writer.