Love and Decisions [pjm - ksg]

Part 5

When they finally reached home Seulgi felt a mixed of feeling. It was a bittersweet kind of feeling and it's as if she was entering a familiar yet foreign state.

She had no idea how long she has been standing at the entrance but a warm touch on her arm made her realised. She looked at Jimin who was giving her a genuine concern expression before smiling. The smile she rarely saw on his face. It made her happy and sad at the same time.

"Let's go to your.. the bedroom. You should rest." He suggested before taking her by grasping her hands. She liked the feeling as he led her in.

Once they were outside the bedroom door she stopped. That caught his attention.

"Why?"

"No..nothing."

So he opened the door and revealed a lovely room painted in yellow and a huge king size bed in the middle with white sheet.

"This is our room?" She asked.

"Y-yes" He stuttered. "Our room."

"It's lovely."

"Why don't you get change and then you can rest. It's already late." He proposed. "I'll be outside if you need anything."

"Jimin..." She uttered softly but still could be heard "Stay with me."

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For the next couple of days Seulgi stayed home accompanied by Jimin. Although it was still awkward between them but he always made sure she was comfortable and provided her with all the things she needed. She would ask him a lot of questions about her, him and their relationship. She appreciated the fact that he would patiently responded her.

"Seulgi-ah.." He called out gently. "I have to leave for a while later because they need me in the office but call me if you need anything."

"Actually, I am fine, Jimin. You don't have to worry about me. Your work is important." She assured him because it made her felt guilty for being a burden.

"No, it's okay. I will be quick and be back before dinner."

When he finally went out Seulgi went around the house. It was a big house for only the two of them. She touched her stomach softly and the feeling of sadness she has always had in her came again. I don't think your appa knows about you, baby.

Seulgi went inside a room next to theirs. It was unfamiliar to her but she noticed it was full of stuffs and gave off the atmosphere that it was occupied. When she opened the closet she found Jimin's clothes neatly arranged. Then she walked towards the bed and sat on it. She wanted to take in all the scent and remember all of these. All of a sudden she started sobbing that she pounded her chest lightly. She couldn't dismiss the sadness in her but quickly wiped the tears off before moving on to the study table by the window. There was an empty piece of paper and somehow she found herself sitting on the chair and began to scribble on it.

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The next day it was a Saturday so naturally their relatives came and visit to check on her. Jimin has been very helpful with entertaining their guests. He would notice if she has gotten tired so he politely and jokingly mentioned it to people. He would interfere whenever she was asked some difficult questions and reminded them that she still needed time to recall.

It was only at night that people stopped coming and they had time for themselves. Out of nowhere Seulgi came up with the idea to take picture of him so she secretly snapped a plenty using her phone.

"Jimin-ah.." He was focused on watching the news on TV but turned as he heard her calling. "Let's take a picture."

He freezed for a moment before giving her a smile. "Okay." So he put his arm around her shoulder and held her phone as both of them posed for the camera. She didn't know why but at one time he looked at her and the moment got captured. She only found out when she browsed through her phone gallery later on.

The next morning she insisted on taking a walk around their area. She reasoned that it could help her get her memory back so Jimin eventually agreed and went out with her.

She did most of the talking as they walked leisurely and he listened attentively. She didn't mind because it made her felt satisfied and content.

They arrived at a park nearby and sat down on a bench. He went to the stall nearby and Seulgi watched him bought two cups of ice-cream. When he returned he passed a cup of strawberry ice-cream to her while he got himself the chocolate one.

"Strawberry.. It's my favourite" She told him.

"You remember?" He asked in a tone of surprise.

"I just thought it's my favourite."

"Oh.." He looked disappointed. "It actually is."

She glanced at him looking startled.

"Jimin-ah.. I think I am ready to move on." She began.

"What do you mean?"

"I think I am healthy enough now to go back to work and move on with my life."

"Oh.. Okay."

"And... I have thought about us too."

His small eyes became rounder. "Us?"

"I understand it was hard for you now with my condition and I also think that it's better for me to find myself on my own."

"Seulgi, I don't understand."

"I don't want to be a burden to you because right now we are practically strangers."

"What? No.."

"No Jimin, listen. I am a new person now that my memory is loss. And I feel that it's better for us to go our separate ways."