I held the small black rose iny hand as I looked up at Alec. I played with the small thorns on either side of the side of the rose being careful not to prick myself. Black roses have always been my favorite of any flower. They were hard to find and even harder love. The reason being for myself to love the dark flower is because I see the flower as myself. Their dangerous and just misunderstood. I just keep playing with it as time passes me by. I give Alec a kiss on the cheek and head home. This day couldn't have ended any sooner I was so glad to see my small brick house which I share with my mom, sister, and step dad. I step in my room and kick off shoe and lay down on my bed and look at the top of my bunk bed. I like that I still have a bunk bed even though I don't share a room with anyone. I like having it because it gives me a since of safety like I'm not alone anymore. I walked over to my side desk in my room and turned on fall away by twenty one pilots. Moments like these I wish I had someone to hold me close and tell me it was okay. I had once had love with Josh but two months ago I found out he kissed another girl so we broke up. I haven't found anyone else that I love the way that I loved him but I guess things happen for a reason. I think of that every night I sit in my bed alone trying to figure out why I wasn't good enough for him. I tried so hard to give him all of my heart but something was stopping me. I guess I some how knew he would break my heart like this but that still wasn't enough to stop the pain that I feel right now. I don't know if I'll ever find love again but I hope I do. As the song comes to an end I get a phone call from my best friend Jordan. I smile brightly at the ringtone I chose for him as don't threaten me with a good time by panic at the disco blares from my phone before I answer it. "hey Jordan what's up?" I speak into the phone. "nothing much just talking to my best friend." I smile at that. "and who might that be? " I smile to myself knowing its me. "batman duh you who else have I been calling my best friend since five years ago".
