Imperfection

Chapter 3 - "The Audition"

(Imperfection - by @datingethan on Twitter)

A/N: sorry for my lack of updates, unfortunately schoolwork has been excessive and my grades have been failing. So, finally here's an update! I promise the twins will be in the picture soon, but as of now I need to develop Tori and her story.

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A week had gone by and I was already loving Los Angeles. The city itself was alive, with vibrant colors, places, and people. My dreams were finally attainable and I wanted nothing more than to get a break.

School was ok. That annoying hazel eyed and brown haired boy continued to speak to me, and actually asked me out. I said no. Just not my type, I guess.

Anyhow, I have my first ever REAL movie audition! While my hopes are high, I know that the chances of me getting a role are very low. The audition is for a movie called "Somewhere Somehow." I've been jumping up and down all week just thinking about it.

Oh - and by the way, auditions are not usually this easy to get. I don't have an agent at this moment in time, so this is just an open call. And the hundreds of other actresses going up for the same role, "Cassandra Mae," are most likely more experienced than I am. However, I decided that while we may all be reading the same monologue for the same character, I will try something a little bit different than what the normal actor might approach the role with. 

Cassandra Mae, or Cass for short, is a 16 year old girl in high school who loses her parents in a car crash in the beginning of the movie. The rest of the film revolves around her life after the crash, and a small romance between her and a 17 year old boy named Liam.

The monologue is Cass' first time speaking after her parents die, and here's a copy of it:

CASS' FIRST MONOLOGUE - Act 1 Scene 3

(Standing alone over her parents' graves)

CASS: Hey, mom. Dad. I know it's only been 2 days since the crash but it feels like it's been an eternity. 

(she takes a deep breath)

CASS: Mom. I miss your melodious laughter echoing through the house when I would make fun of your silly dance moves. I miss your warm hugs and your comforting pep talks. I miss you so much and I wish I had the chance to tell you these things before you, you know... (voice breaks off) Dad. I miss your obvious lying facial expressions and crazy sense of humor. I miss skiing with you and your beautiful blue eyes.

(takes a breath)

CASS: I know you're gone now and there's nothing I can do about it, but I'm terrified. I'm terrified to live the rest of my life without you and honestly I even considered taking my own life. (pauses) But I know you'd be disappointed in me. And that's the last thing I want you to feel right now. I will make you proud someday mom, dad. I promise.

(bends down to touch the gravestones, taking a moment for each)

CASS: Goodbye, mom and dad. I love you with all of my heart.

End of Act 1 Scene 3 - CASS' FIRST MONOLOGUE

Okay, I know the monologue is super depressing but that's what makes this character so interesting. I've decided I want there to be more to her than just her depression and anger. I want her to have a hidden emotion. Perhaps a feeling of relief. I'm not sure just yet. But what I do know is I want to wow the casting directors.

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The day has finally come for my audition. I'm so nervous my pits have always sweated through my shirt - and I triple applied deodorant too! I'll give you the lay down when I get back.