whatever I feel like writing

Things I tell myself

SORRY! WARNING THIS ARE JUST MY THOUGHTS! DON'T TAKE THEM TO HEART PLEASE! 

When I grow up I want to be a happier person. People at school may say "Willow is very happy! I have no idea what you're talking about!" But I like to call it fake happy. Like when someone asks you how are you and you say you're okay. When I talk to my friends and I talk to them I ask if they are really okay, or fake okay because mankind is made to act that way. I hid most of my emotions because it's for the best. If I did show the way I feel I may be considered crazy.

Not Like they don't think I'm not crazy. I think I'm a good crazy. It's because I wear crazy clothes and do crazy things. My fashion is 80's inspired. I'm different. I listen to The Police, The Dead Milkmen, The Dead Kennedys, ect. I have good grades. I'm not some druggy drop out. I mean why would I do that. I believe in buddhism, but I'm not a hippy.  I'm also not vegan because I feel like eating animals shouldn't be a problem because thats life. IF you don't believe me, look in a science textbook. They talk about the science behind that stuff. 

I don't believe in a god personally. I'm not going to write a warning because this is the internet. You should have learned by now that to not get your feelings hurt. I always thought that if there wasn't a heaven that it would be a big let down when I died. But let's be honest when I die I won't even know. I hope it's like a long sleep. I could dream about a life I wanted to live except this one. Not like this one isn't bad. I feel like I have had better before. I don't believe in reincarnation. That would just be strange. I wouldn't be surprised if it was true though. Sometimes I feel like a peice of me is missing. Like I belong somewhere else. Or many I just need a advil for my headache. 

Once a genius said that "Don't tell anyone anything. If you do, you might start missing everybody." That's from Catcher In The Rye. I have never read the book fully, but I always wanted too. Just like To Kill A Mockingbird. I haven't read that book either but I would like to do that too. Have you ever heard of a guy name Carl Sagan. He really knows a lot. It's very impressing. Makes me think when I should be learning about the area of a triangular prism. Why learn that stuff when you're going to become a writer? 

Life can be stupid. But it has no explanation.