Life's Painful Road

Chapter 6

I waited on the swings for Emerson. He was supposed to meet me so I could talk to him. All of a sudden, I saw him in the distance. I stood up as he ran towards me. He wrapped me in an embrace as I hugged back. He pulled away and sat in the swings pulling me down on his lap. He held me close as he kissed my neck. I pulled away and stood up looking him dead I the eyes.

"Emerson. We need to talk." I said yanking on his hand a to get him to stand. He complied as he stared at me confused. "We need to end it before it gets too serious." I mumbled. His lips frowned as he hugged me. I fell into him and teared up. No. No crying. I thought to myself.

"But why?" He asked pulling back. I stared at my feet. He stroked my arm as I searched for the words.

"It just happened so fast. I mean, I broke up with Zack, then not five minutes later, we're going out." I said suddenly. I felt his grip tighten on my arm when he stopped stroking it.

"But... I love you." He stuttered. I nodded. I looked in his bright green eyes that were filling with tears. I got on my tip toes and kissed his cheek. Being a measly 4'11 made it difficult to do any thing. He lifted me up to be eye level with him as I wrapped my legs around him so I wouldn't fall. "I love you. And I will always love you. I will always be there for you. I promise." I wrapped my hands around his neck and placed a soft kiss to his lips before unwrapping my legs and falling to the ground. He had his hands firmly on my waist. I took a hold of them and pulled them off my waist.

"Goodbye Emerson." I said kissing his hands before walking off. When I was out of his sight, I fell to the ground and cried.

  After crying for a few minutes, I decided to get up and go home. When I stood up, Emerson was standing there watching me. We stared at each other for a few minutes before I ran into his awaiting arms. He wrapped me tight as I cried. I felt a tear fall on my shirt, indicating he was crying as well. He pulled away from me and wiped my cheek. He kissed me on my head and walked to his car.

  When I got home, I ran to my room to call Carlie. I always talked to her when I had relationship problems. I hadn't called her about Zack, because I was still upset with her. But I couldn't handle this on my own. I listened to my computer ring as I waited to see her face. When it came up, tears streamed down my face.

  "May!! Tell me now." She stated. I nodded.

  "When Zack and I broke up..." I stuttered. She nodded knowingly. "I started dating that Emerson kid that had a crush on me." I continued. She didn't say anything just continued to nod. "We went out for a few weeks, then today, I broke up with him." I started to ball as she stayed silent.

  "May," she said once I calmed down a little bit. "It's okay. I know you still love Zack. It's very obvious. You talk about him constantly. And if you didn't love him still, you would of stayed with Emerson. I promise, it'll be okay. No need to worry. Just when you're ready, tell Zack how you feel about him." I nodded in agreement. "Oh! And he still loves you too. The day after you broke up with him, he broke up Clara. He tells me everything. I'm kinda of the middle man for you two. You tell me everything and he tells me everything." A smile appeared on my face, knowing Zack still loved me made me so happy.

  "K, bye Carls. Talk to you later." I said hanging up. I looked down at my phone to see Zack texted me about an hour ago. I picked it up. "I want to fix things with you. Not go out again, at least not yet. But, I booked a flight in two weeks. I can't wait to talk to you. Bye." I smiled. I'll see him again. I thought. I responded. "Can't wait to see you too. Just remember, I'm as delicate as a flower." I sent it. It wasn't long before he responded with, "A delicate MAYflower." I giggled.

  We texted for hours. I had forgotten how much fun it was to text him. He always made me laugh. I had to end it when my mom got home. I ran down to meet her as she threw her purse down.

  "May!! How'd it go?" She asked looking down at me. I nodded, remembering that Emerson and I broke up.

  "It was sad, but I talked to Carlie, and found out Zack is coming in two weeks!! He still loves me too!!" I exclaimed. She looked shocked as she took her hands and placed them on my shoulders to calm me down. She looked me dead in the eyes.

  "Do you really want him back?" She asked sternly. I nodded. She shrugged then walked to the kitchen.

  "What's for dinner?" I asked walking next to her. She opened the fridge that was bare.

  "Takeout?" She asked. I nodded and ran to my room to get my purse. We headed to the car to go to the best Chinese food in Germany, and there wasn't many choices. During the ride, I thought hard. Who was I meant to be with? Who did I want to father my kids one day? Was Zack the one for me? Do I really LOVE anyone?