Words From Heart ♥

When I Left You (L)

It might have seemed to you that i was a player , that it was so easy for me to leave you , that i was faking my feelings for i didn't budge in leaving you . I didn't stop in my tracks when I moved away from you .

But you might not know , I didn't just leave you . I left my heart with you , a big part of my heart that belonged to you stayed there watching my back as i became just a mere silhouette in that dark night .

You might have observed me not stopping in my tracks but i guess you failed to see my coggling feet with which i somehow managed to walk without falling in my tracks . You witnessed my squared back , a stiff me and how come i didn't even spare a glance , how come i didn't turn around to have a look at a defeated you . but you might not know what amount of dripping and rolling tears i was hiding by not turning around , what amount of energy it took out of me to resist myself to have a glance at that beautiful face i adored always , to stop and run back to the one whose touch i always craved .!! you don't know How much tears i gulped to make upto the strength to not run back to the person i lend my heart, to not get lost in those beautiful eyes giving it's charm to that cute face ! You so don't know how i did hold myself to not slip of my way and feel the embrace of your hug ,to just see that beautiful smile of yours !!

You only knew the things i showed you , not the ones which i hid to make how much it hurted me oblivious to you . I never had been this much angry with my own self, I so hate myself to put you through all that , to make you suffer all the days . But there is no going back , it's a unidirectional way , even if i die heart want to move back i can't take a U-turn .

It took so much of me to come to the decision of ending our beautiful little world , but I had to , for the fights that were increasing steadily , for the distance which was making us far with each passing moment , for all the disputes making our love fade , for all the disrespect we held for each other . I had to take this step to ensure our love not to fade away , to emboss it in our hearts be it as a hate for me of you . I couldn't see it ending , yet to make it immortal i had to take this step .

It seems so unlegit of me to do so , but i know , once realisation hits you , you would no longer be grieving of what happened . Though i don't either expect you to fade away your hate for me , for i know that what i did was beyond the lines of forgiveness . I know and i can feel my heart still ache to even think you with someone else , but i can't help it either .

I wish we meet again , sometime in future when we have that power to hold on to each other , when we respect each other with all our due hearts , when fights will no longer drift us apart rather will bring us closer , when You and I will cherish all the imperfections of each other , when we'll respect each other's point of view and the decisions considering what might have forced the other one to conclude this .

We definitely loved unconditionally , but as for the fate , it never lied with our eternal bond . But i hope We'll meet soon again with our incomplete story to be completed . And we sure will end up together for that is what my heart believes !!

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