Not My Life to Lead (A Freddie Tomlinson Fanfiction)

Part 13 - Late Night Conversations

That night I lay in bed with a small smile on my face remembering the previous events that took place earlier that morning.

I probably never would've had the courage to do what I did if I wasn't with Emma and that made me think if I wasn't trying to impress her....

Hell I knew she had a boyfriend and she was my childhood best friend but I think secretly I knew I cared about her in more than a friend way...... I always had I was just to blunt to her as well as myself to ever actually admit it.

It was dark out and everyone was sleeping but not me. It was the one time I could reflect and think about things.

I got out of bed and went to the kitchen well more so a separate room that had a fridge, a sink and a few cupboards to go get a glass of milk in hope that would prevent me from having another restless night.

I opened the fridge and took out some milk and got a glass from the cupboard and sat myself down.

I was startled by the sound of footsteps behind me, I quickly turned around in fright that those bloody paps had come back but to my surprise a very pleasant surprise it was Emma.

"Hey sorry for scaring you " she said

I got up and walked over to her and held her hand.

" It's alright, I've just been a bit paranoid you know, about this morning, I don't want them to come back or to do something to you. I've just got you back..... I'm not losing you again" I said as we stared into each other's eyes.

" You not going to lose me Fred " she said with a small sad smile on her face.

" You know I thought about you ever since you left... Every single day, I thought I was the reason. You the only person that's ever truely been there for me and to have that completely stripped away from me it hurt like hell Emma. I know what you did was because it was your only escape from your lifestyle and man I wish I could also escape my reality.... I thought it was a good idea just to end my life, nobody would miss me in anyway. They found my journal, the journal you gave me when we were kids... I used it when ever something bad happened and I needed someone to talk to, I'd write down all my thoughts as if I was telling them to you, it was the only thing I had left of you apart from all the wonderful memories. You have no clue how much I need you in my life Emma, and I know deep down you feel the same. "

Her lips trembled as a single tear slid down her beautiful face. I lifted my hand and as gently as I could wiped it away as she nodded her head frantically.

" I do need you Freddie " she said as she started crying. I grabbed her and held her as closely to my chest as possible, holding her, sheltering her, protecting her and loving her.

" I also thought about you everyday, you were the only thing keeping me from going insane, I'd been dreaming about seeing you again ever since the day I left and the day I found you again I was in complete shock.... I didn't know what to do, how to act and if you'd ever forgive me for leaving you alone, I was so worried you wouldn't want me again" she said in between breaths. I could feel my shoulder becoming wet from her tears as I just rubbed her back, giving her as much comfort as I could.

"Emma I'll always forgive you.... I've loved you since day 1 and I always will no matter what happens, I'll always be here for you "

I felt vulnerable that I had now officially told her I'd loved her, knowing she probably never had loved me but she needed to know that there was now always going to be someone in her life that will always look after her and treat her with the respect she deserved.

"you love me? " she pulled away from my chest shocked and stared right into my eyes as if looking through my soul. I slowly nodded.....

A huge smile escaped her soft pink lips." I love you to Fred! I love you so much" she said and hugged me again.

I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.... Probably also because her tears had now dried. I felt relieved and the at this point in time, nothing could tear me back down to the depressing state I used to be in.... Not the paps... Not my mother and not even my father. After hearing those five words I knew my life would never be the same again.

I leaned down closer to her and she leaned in to me.....

Our lips gracefully touched each others as a million sparks flew in every direction, my stomach exploding with butterflies.

It was unbelievable how well our lips moved in sinc with each other as if I'd finally found my missing puzzle piece or the key to my heart and happiness.... All along it had been Emma.

We broke apart and I stared into her eyes with the biggest smile on my face..... Nothing could ruin this moment.

We heard a creak by the door and both immediately looked in that direction...

It was Dylan.....

Xxxxx

Hey guys it's Nicole, hope you all enjoy this chappie and we trying to make up for not updating in ages with two chapters in one day 😂

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