sonder ; n.

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Pay attention. I watched the clock closely, counting down the seconds in my head. I was in an auditorium. Thousands around me, here for the same thing. Knowledge. some will use it meaningfully in their life; while others are just here for the credit. I was in the middle ground. Why do we put ourselves in these positions? It's not like it will matter in the end. I twiddle my fingers while my professor goes on and on about quantum physics to a room full of unknowing twats. I will never understand. I always wanted more in life. To be something more than the people around me. I don't know if i will ever accomplish that but it's a nice thought. Back to reality. I have to deal with 20 mere minutes in this hell before I can head to my happy place. My room, alone, lights off, and asleep. The minutes feel like seconds till i'm out and man, everytime I leave this school it feels more and more enjoyable. I live with my brother, Aleksandr and his bestfriend, Gustav. Honestly, if they didn't bring bimbos home every night I would think they we're gay for eachother.  We live in the middle of Seattle. We've been here since we were kids and i've never thought about moving. The rain will ALWAYS have my heart. From all the way down my hall i can hear loud gang music and I automatically assume its from our apartment. Knowing my apartment door is obviously open -it always is- Im seriously stumped on how we haven't gotten robbed yet. Not surprised that there's a huge party going on. The smell of weed fills my nostrils and right in front of me are shirtless girls are being held up over a keg. My brother is a typical college boy. Blonde hair, Blue eyes, probably has Gonorrhea by now. Gustav on the other hand, very different. He has light pink shaggy hair, which i find extremely adorable. More tattoos than I can count. They're all meaningful, I like that too. He's really tall, like 6'4, something like that. It's not surprising that every girl is all fucking over him. He has an attractive personality, and maybe face, But nothing would ever happen between us. Even if i wanted it to.