It's Always Been Him | Markhyuck [Angst]

Him [FIN]

Donghyuck was always 100% sure he was Mark's #1 priority. he was Mark's bestfriend, wasn't he? at least, that was what he thought.

Donghyuck's heartbeat would always beat faster whenever Mark touched his hands, or interwined their fingers, smiled at him. Donghyuck always thought maybe Mark would have the same feeling as him. but what Donghyuck didn't know, it's never been him. Donghyuck isn't what Mark ever wanted.

whenever they had any schedules like talkshows, etc, Mark would always stand next to him eventhough he could stand beside Jeno, or maybe Jisung. Mark always stood near Donghyuck like he couldn't live without Donghyuck. He would do skinships whenever he was around Donghyuck. He would hug Donghyuck, smiled at Donghyuck softly, and Donghyuck would catch him for nth times whenever he looked at Donghyuck. he never did any of those things to other members whenever they were in stage. That was what made Donghyuck sure maybe he was special to Mark.

*****

Today is one of those days which Donghyuck likes the most. NCT dream will appear in a talkshow for their comeback. what makes Donghyuck happy is he can already felt Mark's touch against his hands, he can already imagined Mark looking at him softly and he can't wait to be that time already.

'time.. please go faster.' Donghyuck wished.

it's not like Mark doesn't do skinships when they are off camera, but it's just... he knows whenever they are around cameras, Mark will be more touchy to him, and Donghyuck likes it awfully a lot. is it because he wants to tell the world that Donghyuck is his? that's what Donghyuck thinks and it makes Donghyuck feel butterflies in his belly and smile like an idiot.

"Yep, Donghyuck is the cutest and he is definitely my #1 bestfriend!" Mark exclaims proudly when the MC asked him who is the cutest in the group. Donghyuck can't help but blush and hope no one will notice just how fast Mark made his heart beat and how red his face already is.

"I know hyung, I'm the cutest!" Donghyuck said just to cover his nervousness.

and then Markhyuck's shippers go wild.

*****

it's a bright daytime and it just happens to be one of those days when he can't stop thinking about Mark. Donghyuck doesn't think he can contain his feeling any longer and then it's the moment he decided, today will be the day where he will confess to Mark and he is 100% sure Mark will say yes. He knows that Mark loves him, right...? just as much Donghyuck loves him. He can't help but smiling all the way while he is running looking for Mark. Little did he know, it's never been Donghyuck to Mark. It's just a moment before he will finally know the truth that Mark has never been his from the very beginning and he has never been the number one in Mark's heart from the very start because Mark's heart has already filled by someone else, someone who is special to Mark, and that person is certainly not Donghyuck.

"Jeno! do you know where is Mark?" Donghyuck asked when he bumped into Jeno in a corridor.

"ah, Donghyuck! the last time I saw him he was in the practice room. maybe he's still there." Jeno stopped and smiled at Donghyuck.

"okay thankyou!!" Donghyuck smiled and running to the practice room after he waved Jeno a goodbye.

he's just about to enter the practice room when he heard familiar voices from the practice room and that's the time he witnessed something he shouldn't have seen.

He can feel his world collapsed when he heard a familiar voice saying something that he always wanted the words was only to him.

"Nana, you are the most beautiful person I have ever met."

it's Mark. And Donghyuck can see Mark is looking into Jaemin's eyes warmly, caressing Jaemin's cheeks softly like Jaemin is the most fragile person in the world and there's too much softness in Mark's gaze. the way he never looked at Donghyuck the same way he is looking into Jaemin right now. he can see Mark leaning closer to Jaemin and that's when he realized, Mark is kissing Jaemin.

Donghyuck always thought he was #1 priority to Mark. Donghyuck always thought he was special to Mark. he always treated Donghyuck like Donghyuck was the only one to him whenever they were in stage, or they were in front of camera. but why is Mark kissing Jaemin now?

and then it hits him hard. it's never been what Mark wants. it's always been what fans want. because fans love Markhyuck, and Mark just did what their fans ever wanted.

*****

the way he touched Donghyuck's hand in the stage, the way he smiled at Donghyuck in front of cameras, the way he would laugh at Donghyuck whenever Donghyuck joked around in a live video.

All of it isn't real.
because it's always Jaemin, and it's always been Jaemin to Mark.

END

●○●○●○●

this idea suddenly popped into my mind when I randomly scrolled through my twitter's timeline lol
tell me what you guys think about this
sorry for any grammatical errors since English isn't my first language!

Don't forget to vote and comment if you like the story🥰